I woke up with my mom crying. It's the stress talking. I didn't know what was happening, but I got up immediately when I heard her sobbing and calling my name. Who wouldn't get up? She told me what had happened, and I knew then that we've reached the point of having arguments and misunderstandings during preparation. It happens. But I noticed that I didn't like the way my sister-in-law replied to my mom regarding the "lack of communication" between my mom and my sister. My mom said that there was just something unclear with the host / emcee, and so she asked my sister-in-law what to do for clarification. My sister-in-law apparently took it the wrong way and told my mom she was behind the schedule. It felt like my mom is at fault about asking a question.

She was also leaving for work. If I were mom at that point while preparing for work, I'd be so out of the mood I'll just stay at home and get depressed. But it's her nature that mom gets a change of pace when she goes to work. So I told her not to think about anything anymore. I said I'll pray for the matter. I decided to pray, because no one really has any control on what's happening right now. We're running out of time and I want to make sure that we're including God in this plan. As a Christian, I want God to be involved in making big decisions in life, because I end up failing when I don't make my own decisions. A lot of things. Take for example, that plan of creating our MMORPG server. Money is involved in that plan as well, in a sense that I'll be earning money too in return. However, it felt very wrong doing it. I said I'd be interested in investing in it, but the people who would program and run it didn't show up. That's just one example in my life. That uneasy feeling deep inside should have been obvious for me to know that it's probably not a smart idea to invest in.

When mom left, I wasted no time and took a seat on the couch. I closed my eyes first to search what to say. That's when I realized that we may have missed a crucial component in the preparation. Prayer.

I know that the theme for the debut is Parisian. Still, it should show that we're a Christian family on the foreground. I'm not really sure if this event was prayed for. This is what I was realizing at that moment. I cried out to God asking for forgiveness on behalf of all that has happened and admitted that we need God to lead us on that event. I've been involved in a lot of planning and I'm sure that there are times when people argue about certain points in preparation. But I noticed that everything turns out fine afterwards. Maybe this is also one of those moments. Everything will be okay. I felt relieved and calm after saying amen.

I missed school again because I don't want to miss our last dance practice. It was put for today again. But we still couldn't complete our routine. I've been told that I would lead the entrance in the intro. I just laughed at them.

Dinner was okay. Mom and my sister didn't argue or whatever. Once and for all, the three of us, my older brother, my sister and I finished the line dance.

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Monday. It's time to go to work and miss the dance practice. I'm still not 100% with my current condition from my cold. And I felt like I wasn't really productive today. Still, I can't miss work now. When I got home, I found out that their dance practice today was cancelled. I just felt really happy that time that I'm going home. Oh yeah, 3 stuff arrived today. My computer glasses, my Arcade block and my LED clock fan. I thought that Canadapost only brings you two parcels at max.

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After church service, I hitched a ride with my cousin K while he drove auntie to work. We'll have the last practice for L's song number. After dropping off tita M at the hospital where she works, we stopped over at Mcdo. I asked him if he could get me fries and some caffeinated drink. I was feeling lethargic. It was Sunday afternoon, the sky was gray, and it was cold. The weather was such a gloom today. Add to that, the leaves are turning.

We got to Tito L's place at 4:10pm. Practice was perfect. I'm wondering why we're still practicing. We have no problem at all. But I'm thinking maybe she just wants to be sure and confident about Saturday's performance. We ate dinner there. Just enough to get me by. And then we went home at 6pm after giving them the final briefing of the debut.

There's still time and the rest of my cousins in the dance are still not here. So I continued to print the table handouts while waiting for the rest. The dance practice was finished about 80% tonight. We're still missing parts for our routine. We've decided to do our entrance like a flash mob thing. But they just told me that they could send me the video of the stuff. They setup their practice tomorrow and Tuesday instead. I have class on Tuesday and I'll miss their last practice. The truth is tonight is supposed to be our last practice and we're still missing parts of it.

There's no more time.

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Saturday. The debut is almost here. And the fact is... this is the last weekend before the big day.

We had a meeting early morning at 9am. I barely slept last night. I slept for 4 hours. But it's time to finish everything. I'm missing out on a lot of things now. And there had been issues in the preparations so far. I tried to finish my table pieces and the handouts before 2pm.

I decided to change my shampoo. Maybe the rash on my face might really have something to do with it. I'll stay away from Tresemme from now on. I changed and grabbed a can of Pepsi so I can have sugar in my body. Then I called for a ride to church at 2pm. The youth practice started at 2:45 until 4pm. The Music Ministry practice proper lasted until 5pm.

My cousins and I went to eat halo halo. It's another one of those food trips, because we ate at KG afterwards. We talked about my dispute with Paypal. And we had Karaoke at night. Fun night actually. I can't believe all of that happened with four hours of sleep. But I won't be used to that kind of thing. Never.

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Friday. I'm back at work. Today's work felt like a boxing match. I'm taking washroom breaks just to clear my throat and my nose. It's a cold alright. I'm just itching to go home. I really thought that I wouldn't finish tonight's shift because of my body condition. I was sure that I'd be going home midway, but no. I stuck it out. I'm glad I won.

When I got home, I started working on the PowerPoint slides and finished the base. I don't know if I'm looking forward to the weekends, thinking that it's going to be another busy weekend with all the practice and preparations. It's going to involve more practice and preparations since October 4 is almost here! I've got rashes on my face. The stress rash got to me first!

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Thursday. I called in sick again today. I feel okay, but not enough to go to work. My re-schedule looks like it's going to be a busy next week. At least, I get to rest for the mean time. The trade-off is fairly simple.

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I called in sick from work today. I knew it. I'm sick and it's developing into a cold. I changed my bedsheet and the rest of my stuff on the bed altogether. I can't get sick now, since I have a lot of stuff to finish. I've also developed rashes on my face; yes, rashes. I'm very much surprised how all of these appeared suddenly. I searched the Internet and it might be stress rash. But it might be my current shampoo.

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Tuesday. I missed school today because I'm sick. Just sick. I also changed my blanket today thinking that my blanket isn't warm and comfy enough. I just want to feel fresh and comfortable tonight.

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It's all good if my Saturday and Sunday were all full and exhausting days, because today's a Monday day off. But I woke up with a very sore throat. It didn't feel good at all. It felt dry and it felt like my throat was cracking. I felt terrible in the morning and in the afternoon too. So my sister and the rest of the cotillion practiced at the venue today without me.

Until now, I haven't seen the actual venue itself. I sent them my own small sound system so they can rehearse their entrance and dance. It turns out that my brother also woke up to a sore throat. This week doesn't look good. I had a hard time sleeping and I couldn't finish the rest of my debut materials.

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It was a full day yesterday, it's also a full day today. Sigh. I woke up early this Sunday, around 6am. I went to church to praise and worship the One and Living God. After the service, I called my folks to see if they're ready to check upon the sound system at uncle A's house. I got home and cousin K called. We went to the studio to wait upon my cousin M, because he knows uncle A's address. While waiting, we set up everything for two unboxing videos.

Cousin M showed up in the studio and off we drove to uncle A's house at 5pm. Unfortunately, no one's picking up. I've called in advance that we're checking the sound system today. I called back home to ask for advise what to do. My mom said that uncle A knows, but he might be out fishing. We still continued on our way. Everything turned out fine, because he was there. Even though I called his cellphone and the landline, he wasn't just able to pick both calls.

I'm pleased that the sound system was all set and I also took notes on how to operate them. My cousin K said that he's already used it before; come to think of it, we used them before this past Christmas party. Everything seems to be set, but I took notes to bring extra mics and mic cables. We got back at 6pm for our dance practice in our house, and practiced until 9pm. We finished diner at 9:30pm in the studio and edit the videos until 12am.

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We had breakfast in the morning while conducting our family meeting this Saturday morning. We finalized everything today and assigned our roles on the day itself. It's also today that I discovered that my brother and sister-in-law have plans moving out of Winnipeg. I just shut up. I had about four hours of sleep and then I went to church at 2pm to handle a 'workshop' for the youth; well, it's best to have a substitute drummer, guitarist, keyboardist and PW leaders. We practiced until 5pm.

I called my cousins to pick me up. We ate halo-halo afterwards. It's apparently a food trip, because we also ate at KG (Vietnamese eats) for dinner at 7pm. The fun didn't stop there, and I found myself ignoring my four hour sleep and sleep deprivation. We drove to tita D's house for karaoke. We ransacked their house like a typhoon out of nowhere. I don't know if we ate dinner there. I think we just had flour covered quail eggs (kwek-kwek in Filipino). I'm on my bed at 11pm.

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Friday, early morning at 2am, I had a chat with my girlfriend until 4am. I've missed her long enough and it's time for a video chat, I thought. I woke up with mom saying about a package. It appears that customs opened my Lootcrate and sealed it with a rubber band. Yes, a rubber band. And then my pin is missing. This month's Lootcrate theme is Galactic. Also, today's my payday.

I'm just happy that I made it out alive from work. The last two hours were exhausting. This day is exhausting. And it'll be crunch time tomorrow since the debut is coming fast. More practice. More things to do in a weekend that should be a rest. More work to finish. It's ironic. Tomorrow is the last weekend practice for the cotillion and tomorrow is the last meeting for the debut itself.

When I got home I thought that our house is falling apart. The TV is already broken, we're spending money for my sister's debut, we're going home and we're supposed to be saving, now our dryer won't turn on.

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It's already Thursday morning. Because I slept in early last night, I found myself waking up in the middle of the night and trying to fall asleep again. My body gave up at 6am doing whatever things. I couldn't sleep and I'm just a mess. I shake my head at myself. But NerdBlock arrived today. Work was okay at the end. I guess Thursday is just a step ladder day going to Saturday / Friday. We should move along.

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Finally, I've sent a message to eBay's resolution center. I miss my girlfriend and the weather's a gloom. It's cold out today. I don't know why. I've been trying to make a productive day. My face is very itchy and I don't know why. I'm thinking it's my shampoo, and maybe it irritates my skin when it gets to my face after rinsing it. I'm wondering in the office if the guys at Paypal or eBay have already replied.

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I stayed home today because I didn't want to leave mom. You know, I was wondering why mom and dad went home at 4am last night. It appeared that mom hit her head at work from an accident. They wanted her checked up after work (after 11pm) if she had a concussion.

My dad told me they stayed at the hospital until 4am. I shake my head how my dad was still able to go to work at 6am afterwards. Trust me, he's no workaholic. I should know, because I'm his son and I don't have any trait like that. No one in our family has any of that. We're just simple, even though I'm trying to break from the mold. But the point is, I realized his love and sacrifice for us. I'm thinking that mature dad has gotten more matured? So I stayed home just in case something happened. Mom didn't go to work obviously.

School was just a blah anyway. I'm just on my second week, so we all have second lectures today. It's fine. I tried to salvage the day by brainstorming for my literature. I failed miserably. When dad got home, I asked him and this is what he told me about why they got home very late. I thought that they went to a Bible study or a prayer meeting.

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I've canceled the filming today. I was tired and I wanted to get some rest instead. I've also finished the video lyric movie today. It's such a relief. Anyway, Monday was just a messy day for me. The watches that I've ordered are still nowhere to be found. I've made some drawings in the evening.

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It was a full day today. Went to Sunday service in the morning. After church, I went home to rest a bit for the cajon practice in the afternoon while feeling drowsy. But I can't stop. I hitched a ride with my cousin and we went to practice L's song for my sister's debut. It's not that hard of a song and it's only one song. It's just to show courtesy. Well, the show of courtesy paid off since I got to eat Domino's pizza this evening. Filipino households are always hospitable to their guests, I thought. At 6pm, we got back home for the dance practice. I was running on caffeine. I'm thinking that we're running out of time for the dance practice. Maybe we're going to wing it.

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Saturday. Photoshoot. My brother's friend was also there to capture our picture. First off to the Legislative Office. Freaking cold outside. My cousin K followed suit. Fall attire first. Then formal inside the Legislative. Then I thought it was over. Went to the Union Station afterwards. We're off to casual outfit and more picture taking. Mom and Dad left to attend a Bible study. We went to eat dinner next all six of us, my siblings, my sister-in-law, my cousin K and their friend D. Had to take out some food for my mom and dad. The restaurant had a weird waiter by the way. When he offered us our pickerel, he said, "Here's your dead fish."

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I sent a message to the seller on eBay about my orders not arriving. This is the second time. It's 4am and I'm buying stuff on eBay again. I'm not affected by this recent event, I still think it's good. Maybe this is retail therapy. A therapy for what? I don't know. But I'm feeling better. I woke up at 9am to get going. Not sure if I'm looking forward to tomorrow, because there'll be no rest for me this weekend. It's a super productive day today so I'm tired. Hey, I woke up tired too. It's the family photoshoot tomorrow for the debut presentation.

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I slept at 5am today. And today's also the 9/11 anniversary. I thought today's shift would be smooth sailing, but I can only shake my head and move on. I also started working on my video lyric for my sister's debut. It's an old Filipino Worship song called Kalinga by Papuri. Kalinga in English is Providence. I also resumed on two entries for my literature. I've finally sent a message to Paypal about my orders not arriving. I've sent a message to the seller and there was no response. I'm tracking the nozzle for the dryer too. You know what, I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to my weekend.

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Still no watch, man. But it's about time, because I'll be sending a message tomorrow night to file a dispute at Paypal. It's super productive today, but I'm tired. I'm starting to think if I should buy my textbook or not. Initially, I thought that I'm just looking to wing my course, but I'm having my doubt that the teaching notes online would be enough. It's still Wednesday crunch and I'm waiting for the weekend already.

It's cold outside today. While I was walking on my way to work, I felt discouraged and tired for some reason. But I found encouragement in asking myself who my God is. Then I'm reminded about all the things that have happened in the past. He's the reason of the great things that have happened to me. We didn't even want to come to Canada, but it seemed like the papers were worked on by themselves, and the next thing we found out is looking at our departure date. Who is my God? Well He is the God of the Bible. But who is the God of the Bible? Well, I can post a small resume of who He is:

The God of the Bible...
... saves from sin.
... heals all diseases.
... delivers us from powers and principalities and prince of darkness himself.
... is our provider; He is the Jehovah Jireh. He guides and He provides.
... answers by fire.
... is the God that has the power to give you wealth.
... is the Lord that gives you the power to get wealth.
... makes you the head and not the tail.
... will give you vineyards that you didn't plant, give you wells didn't dig.
... will plant you by streams of living water and whatsoever you do shall prosper.

He is our fortress. He is our high tower. He is our shield. He is our buckler. He is our helmet. He is the Living Word. He's the bread of life. He's the light of the world. He is the everlasting Father. He is the Prince of Peace. He is the judge of all the Earth. He is sovereign and He makes things happen how it's going to happen.

He is the One that healeth' me when I was on the brink of Hepatitis B/C due to a freakish blood condition when I was in University of the Philippines; the doctor returned with a result that I've had Hepatitis A and I made it back to school after 2 months of rest. While looking at the mirror, I saw a mole on my eyeball and I prayed for it, I never seen it again after I got home. He is the God that dissolved a lump inside my chest. He is the God that kept me safe when I was a year old from a stray bullet; my grandma told me that if I had not crawled away from my place, I would've been shot on the head -- the bullet ricocheted and grazed my grandma's leg. He is the God that kept me safe when I got chased down by a dog, when a tricycle driver popped out of nowhere driving towards me to scare away the dog; he later commented that he, too, was almost bitten by it. He kept me safe from being stabbed while a hold up was in progress, and none of my belongings were stolen. I'm living my dreams that I've never felt like living because of His providence. He is the God that disciplines; I have had my worldly plans canceled; I've had broken equipment that later gets fixed by itself; unexplained outcomes from work and school; they're all due to my selfishness, pride and sin. There are simply too many things to mention who He is in my life. He is who I need. He is my hope. And He is my God whom I put my faith in.

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I talked to my girlfriend until 1am. Since I miss her too, we just tried to unload and chill out talking about random things. Life's good.

Still waiting for the watches and there's still no update from the seller. I ordered a generic nozzle for our dryer. It's weird how the dial broke just after our big screen TV broke as well. Anyway, I'm relieved to find out that the only broken part is simply the dial of dryer and not something expensive. There's no update yet on the nozzle, but my purchase has a tracking number.

I slept at 4am. I couldn't fulfill any of my other deadlines for the debut and my own literature. I'm trying to deal a big chunk of my debut deadlines such as the layout of the menu, the design of the program, organizing different music tracks, practicing for the dance, writing my speech, and coordinating with the folks about the sound system. And again, that's just for the debut. I also want to refresh myself on writing my own literature, such as my original short stories, web novels and fanfiction. [insert ain't got no time for that meme here].

Tuesday is official. I woke up at 8am. It's a school day and I ate my lunch. School was alright -- as always. Thank God. I don't have the capacity for a terror teacher right now. It also feels like the weather had turned for the cold too. And summer is not over yet. I feel like it's we're going to have an early winter. I hope not, because it doesn't always mean that if there's an early winter, there'll be an early spring.

While in class, my cousin messaged me on FB asking me if I was home. I told him I'm in school. He said he was bored. I was too. But it can't be helped. I replied at him saying to drive me to Kuya L on Sunday because I don't know their place. They want me to practice with Kuya L's daughter playing the acoustic box. His daughter wants to sing a song for my sister, so I thought that was great. I want to check out her singing too.

Got home at 9:30pm and I played State of Decay. After I got bored playing the videogame, I discovered that there's a lot of things I want to buy. This is my cousin's fault for introducing me eBay and Amazon. I don't have money to spare. Well, I have money, but I don't want to spend them yet, because I'm saving for my trip home. I turned in early because of a headache.

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I opened my Facebook and I read a message that my girlfriend misses me. She left her message at 5am -- my time. That was too early I thought. So I left her a message afterwards at 9am in my time.

Mondays. It really is difficult working on Mondays, huh? This is my feeling while I was in the bathroom. For some reason, my body felt like slacking and I didn't want to do anything. But I missed last Friday's shift so I have to pick up the slack.

I missed the onsite practice for the debut at the venue itself. They're practicing the entrance and the cotillion. I haven't seen the venue yet, and it's important, because I'm in charge of laying out the sound system. But anyway, away to the office for the day I'll say. I changed my schedule today too.

The weather was gloomy. It was also one of my reasons why it was difficult for me to leave my bed. But as of my health, well, I'm feeling fine and better now. But I'm not amused at the fact that the weekend's over. Work is somewhat productive today. I just can't wait to get home. My Tales of Xillia Collector's Edition arrived today. Eventually, I came home of course. Oh yeah, the watches I ordered from eBay are still nowhere to be found. It's almost time to file a dispute.

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It's Sunday. I feel a bit better today. I was able to start my remaining debut responsibility today. I'm looking at finishing the video lyrics and the table handouts this week too. I have a feeling it's going to be a big progress towards finishing my to-do list for the debut. I'm telling myself to finish these so I won't get drowned with school. Whatever I can finish at the earliest will help me ease my load. To jumpstart my brain, I resumed writing my literature. I also drew costumes for my pet project called 'X'. Drawing costumes is hard. At the end of the day, all I could say is crunchtime is now.

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Woke up Saturday early morning and I'm still coughing. Story of the day. I went back to sleep. Today's the birthday of my cousin's daughter. I thought I could make it, but I didn't want to infect everyone in the party. So I laid low. I didn't fast today, because I needed nutrients. I didn't want to have an empty stomach while fighting this flu and I don't want to make my cough worse. This is exasperating, because it's no time for me to catch a cold or a flu. School is starting, the debut of my sister is approaching and there's lots of things to do in church. I guess, I'll have to miss those things for the moment.

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So my girlfriend and I chat over to Friday. I think my pace yesterday got me tired that I feel a bit cold when I slept. When I woke up today, I felt like crap. I was going down with a cold and I was coughing. While I was getting ready for work, the weather was cold outside. I felt really sick to go to work and I wasn't in the condition to leave home. But I still tried to go to work. There was an ominous cloud looming above the sky. It was a great weather to just stay home. My mom was also staying home, because of her doctor's advise.

It felt such a gloom to be riding the bus going to work that moment. Truly. I was negotiating with myself what I'm going to do. Eventually, I reached a conclusion. When I reached the office, I told my supervisor that I wasn't feeling good. He said that he'll write a note and that I should give HR a heads up if I'll miss my next shift. I wrapped myself up and left the office. Ironically, the weather suddenly improved when I stepped out of the building. I headed home instead. I had to endure that commute though; it was crowded inside the bus around 4pm. I called my dad, and I thought to myself that I could still get a haircut given the time and even with my present condition. It's just a haircut anyway. Then we went home and I just rested.

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It's funny how today unfolded going to work. While on my way to the bus stop, I saw the bus 44 from the distance and I got a bit angry how early it appeared. There was no way to make it there, because my stop was still two blocks from where I was. I mean the bus was 6 minutes early. I just turned around to walk to the other bus stop, so I can catch the bus 43. It's ironic, because bus 43 was late this time and I was able to catch it. When I reached downtown, I got off my bus stop and I crossed the street. I walked straight and I was about to cross the second intersection, then I looked to my left, I see the bus 44 that left me. It's a funny turn of event for me that made me smile a bit. It turns out that I reached downtown earlier than this bus that left me because of being super early.

Work was super productive today, it's all I could say, but this pace of work will tire me eventually. As I looked back, I missed my chat with my girlfriend this morning. So I told her that we'd chat later tonight instead. Our chat carried through the Friday morning. That's how long we've been talking. But pretty much it's all about random things.

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I had to work in the afternoon. My mom had a checkup today. Time to earn that payday. I'm eager to work since I just paid my tuition fee and my checking is looking pitiful. Pretty straightforward day in the office. Today's also the start of the school year. After getting home, I played State of Decay. I'm almost finished with it. As expected -- it's so unfortunate to say that -- the watches are still not here. Oh yeah, there's also that toothbrush story. I'll just code it as the toothbrush story, because it's hilarious and super embarrassing.

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This is the first time my checking account dipped to negative, thus a not sufficient fee was charged on me. It's not like I don't have any money, but the NSF was a hassle. I just forgot to transfer my money between my savings and checking. Fail. I'm a bit glad I learned that lesson. Speaking of checking, I paid my tuition fee today.

I woke up in the morning, because I wanted to pay it before lunch. If I ended up leaving in the afternoon, I'd feel like I'll be wasting the rest of the afternoon. Just as expected, since tomorrow's the due date, there was a lot of people in queue. Fortunately, I was able to pay everything before lunch. I just decided to eat lunch at home, and so I went home. While waiting for the bus, I came across a familiar friend. It's always a pleasant surprise meeting familiar faces in the street. It was my friend Nura.

What else is fun? It's fun going home at 1pm. I guess it's just me, but I like coming home at 1pm. I played State of Decay all afternoon and lazed away, because school is starting. The watches I ordered from eBay are still not here. I don't think they'll ever arrive. It's almost time to issue a dispute to Paypal.

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September is here! It's crunch time. I've reverted to my old schedule at work to accommodate my studies and the preparations for my sister's debut. It was also time to edit the video of our VLOG 1 for our Youtube channel. Editing started at 5pm. We had to take a break at 9pm to eat dinner. And then the editing resumed until 2:49AM. Good thing I don't have work tomorrow. We didn't know that editing would take that long. Sigh. Summer's ending.

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