Sunday. As much as I wanted to stay home and study, it felt wrong. It turns out that it was just sis. H and I on the instruments today. We are that short-handed in the instruments. If I haven't shown, it'll be just her on the guitar, and it's obviously not a good picture. I wasn't expecting that it would be just the two of us. I mean, who showed up for practice yesterday then?

Bro. G collapsed and sis. J had to be with her husband. I was surprised, because he seemed well lately. I still don't know what caused him to collapse, but I'm relieved that help arrived on the scene when sis. J called for emergency services. Bro. G collapsed just as he was getting ready for church. The church prayed for him continuously.

I got home immediately after the service so I can prepare for the final exam. I don't want to think much about it now. It's useless to worry. I've also tackled the harder chapters in light of organizing the ideas of each chapter altogether in my head.

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I'm looking to review a lot this Saturday. The final exam is this coming week! So I should make good use of this weekend, right?! My head's in a mess right now, but I have to keep going! I texted sis. J about not being able to make it for practice today. I burned the midnight oil last night reviewing as well. I should do the same today too. I'm thinking of covering two chapters today, and it's enough to make me feel confident. I'll study about those uncertain chapters tomorrow. The summary of the course is coming along slowly in my mind.

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It's my mom's birthday today. And it's also Friday. A part of me is itching to just stay home, but I couldn't afford it. I wanted to celebrate her birthday with her since she had no work today. Anyway, work was just steady. I still wished that the hours could've passed by faster. I got home past 10pm and hurriedly went home. It's also Black Friday and I scoured the web to hunt some deals. I decided to place my order once and for all. I'm living on faith that I won't be left behind for myself when I come back home in January.

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It is the last day of the lecture. And I gotta' say, the last two topics are a brain killer. For the folks who missed it, good luck. There was also a case study at the end of the class and there were only 3 of us in the group out of 6! We barely tried to make sense out of the questions at first, but we just plainly tried to solve the question with our guts and instincts. I'm not sure how it went, but everyone else was stumped too.

I got home around 9:30pm. I finally decided to buy the gift for mom and dad. They decided to slash $50 off and I think it's because of Black Friday. It's my first time purchasing something major and something this big online. Well, it's a 50" 120hz LED-LCD Smart TV. Also, the two Naruto figurines arrived today. They're presents for my friends in the Philippines. After doing my shopping online, my brain was tired. Again, just thinking about the topics for my final exam is giving me a headache.

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Wednesday. I thought I'd be advising at work today. There was a change of plans at the last minute. I got assigned to my usual work. The shift was simple and straight. I was just wondering why my mindset feels different approaching today. It's the same work, but I can't explain why I'm off sync. I've started reviewing for my final exam even in the office. When I got home, I did some more studying and kept answering some practice questions. Although, I'm still hesitating to study the chapters before the midterms. I'm thinking that if I read them now, I'll become more confused. A different solution is involved, and as long as I'm getting what the recent lectures are, I'm satisfied as of now. I'll just tackle them later.

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It's not yet the last day of lectures, but I really have to start reviewing more for the final exam. If I think about it, I've had to rack my brains with four questions during the midterm and I've consumed the full three hours. If I don't practice, I don't think I'll be able to finish everything. All I know is that a lot of number crunching will be involved in the final exam. Just thinking about where to start or how I should study is giving me a headache.

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Monday. I started answering the practice questions in preparation for my final exam. The final exam is fast approaching. I have a week left of lectures and then next week is my finals. Wow. Fall terms always go by fast.

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I woke up from my nap and I couldn't get back to sleep. I was also hungry. I wanted to write something, I thought so I might as well get up. I knew I had to sleep immediately so I get the energy this morning.

Today's a special Sunday. Before starting everything, we huddled up for the morning and prayed together. The youth will play. I went there early and the opening prayer was absolutely heart warming. A 9 year old lead us in prayer and I lost count to how many Bible verses he cited in his prayer. More than 10, I think. A genuine prayer from the heart is what I thought. Everything's going to be okay, despite that the practice was incomplete yesterday. It's not in my hands, but I prayed that the praise and worship would turn out fine.

And indeed everything turned fine. I'm so proud of them, but I just kept it to myself. It's funny how I'm for the prayer for the family and I missed them all of a sudden because they were attending in our former church. The service went really well. Professor Peter Munuke prayed for us. I'm feeling especially very strong right now.

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Saturday. I wanted to focus at the youth's practice and the present time instead of wallowing on my muddy mistake. It's over. The damage has been done. We should do things right at the present. Furthermore, I want to focus on the youth because tomorrow is their big day. They'll be sponsoring the Sunday service. We started the devotion at 1pm and affirmed the youth's commitment to God through the music ministry.

At this point, I was thinking to myself that today's practice should be a strict and result oriented. That's right, we should produce a positive result. I'm so tired after 5pm. We haven't been able to practice their last two songs properly. Just the bits of the two songs. Despite what's happening, everything seems to be back to normal. That concerned me a bit, but like it should be: I just put my faith in God. I took a nap afterwards.

Tomorrow is a continuation of the anniversary. It was a long day and I thought that the practice was incomplete. When I got home, we talked about school and other random stuff.

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There's just so many things that crowding my head right now. I'm feeling daunted and very concerned about my possible pocket money being less than I anticipate. But no matter. I find my mind, my soul, spirit and body weary but I can't rest now. I'm surrounded. My final exam is approaching too. I didn't know what to say to my cousin M when I found out that he has a job interview today. My cousin K texted me early morning too. I also wasn't sure what to tell sis. J about this Saturday's practice. I feel down. It was fine going to work, but I could only hope and pray that everything is going to be okay. I posted a message / notice about tomorrow's practice. I can feel that I 'm almost at my goal. I'm just glad that

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Thursday. I'm just thinking about all sorts of things. I tried to sit back and reflect on what happened so far. I'm reminded that I shouldn't mind about my work too much since it's not a determinant of my future. I'm about to leave my work anyway, but I guess I took it to heart how I've been told as unreliable. I should move on. Today's day off served as a distraction, but I can't focus on the distraction! Oh, the irony! I shouldn't be brooding on the negative things in my life. Look at the good things you have. We're almost there in the holidays and the trip home eventually.

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Today is officially my worst day at work. Just a notch above not being fired or terminated. I'm so down right now, because I've been considered unreliable for missing my shifts. I don't know if I'll complain or if it would even help because I'm missing out due to my illness, my studies, and my life in general. I'm eligible for a wage increase this review. What that means is that even though I'm actually doing a great performance, I'm not getting a wage increase after my 500 hours. I'm at my 100 right now. I guess my consolation is this sad news didn't happen at my 499th hour.

When I went to work today. It felt like crap because of the things that might not arrive on time. It was so tough today. I got home and I was teary eyed at the bus. I cried while walking too. I just don't have any choice, do I? It puts me in perspective if I should ever care about tomorrow. I'm so tired of this job really. I feel different now. It's like I don't want to go back. It's the strain. But I'm going home right now and I need pocket money. I also want to bless my mom and dad for everything they've done. That's why I'm looking at a major purchase before this year ends.

They taught us advising today. That means I'll be teaching other people how to do their job. I wonder if my supervisors think that I'm unreliable. I changed my schedule yesterday. It's only Wednesday and I'm barely hanging on towards the weekend. The final exam is fast approaching. Despite everything that's happening right now, I must keep it together.

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Tuesday. Went to school and then my cousin K called me again. I told him that I was in school. Today's also my late high school teacher's funeral ceremony. I didn't make it, because I have my class for my major. Apparently, cousin K was with my sister when called me. I wonder where they were exactly. It's Tuesday and I'm sure my sister has classes, but I wonder if cousin K happened to drop by where she was. Cousin K doesn't go to school by the way. Anyway, I pay my respect to Mr. S, you were among the first people that talked to me when I was in the school office while registering for Grade 12. He was truly a personable and helpful person.

Class ended early. I thought that the final exam is fast approaching.

By the sound of my cousin, I think I'm opening another limited edition stuff again.

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Nerd Block arrived today. I got a call from my cousin at night to open something for him. I didn't know what it could be and he's not telling me. It might be his Cyborg Ninja that he has been dying for and scouring the web for -- it might even be the videocard, the last component that his gaming rig needs. When I entered the studio, lo and behold, it's The Amazing Spiderman 2 Collector's Edition. At first, I was feeling jelly, since I'm a Spiderman fan. I mean, my cousin K is not even a Spiderman fan! I should have that instead, but naaah. I gotta save for my trip home next year. We filmed our episode 10. Episode 10 already?! Them special events have been looking plain lately, just like our church anniversary at WCFM. Yeah, and then I had dinner over at their house and I came home around 10pm.

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Today is our church anniversary at the Winnipeg Christian Family Ministry. Pastor R and his family are back from the Philippines. It felt like an ordinary Sunday. Truly. Shouldn't church anniversaries feel special? I hope that there could be someone to handle the church's music ministry soon. I'm leaving soon to join my family in our former church. But I can't leave when this office is so short handed.

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Saturday. Practice at 1pm. I was enveloped in a pretty hard atmosphere. The head of our music ministry is stepping down. It's a problem, because the ministry is still quite under developed and we need more instrumentalists; and now no one will be leading. It couldn't have been more difficult to tell everyone that I plan to join my family at my former church. I've given the former-head and senior members the heads up, but the youth had to digest the news. The head of the music ministry is stepping down due to internal issues, communication problems and resource issues. I have some suggestions, but I'm not sure if it is what they're looking for. However, this just goes to show that I can't leave.

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This week's ruined. I'm still not feeling better especially in the afternoon. Missed a lot of action this week, huh? This is perhaps the result from a bad start during the first day of the week.

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I called in sick today, because of the cold. Tony answered the phone and so he also told me that if I can make it tomorrow, it would be ideal. I don't know about tomorrow yet. I just felt really tired and cold today. I'm still feeling the sting of that Blizzard purchase until now. I'll only buy from Blizzard gear store if it's an absolute must basis. Which makes me wonder if there is such a need in the future.

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Wednesday. My Blizzard purchase arrived. Just a tip to my future self, the tax was super big. You'll probably never buying Blizzard products again. Probably. The tax I paid to the Fedex guy was about around 40% of my purchase! It's due to import fees. Sigh. I only bought a t-shirt and a figurine that were on sale. And the import fee was almost the price of another item on the gear store.

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Remembrance Day. Lest we forget the sacrifices of the people who fought for our freedom.

It's a holiday for me. I wanted to do some shopping, but out of respect for the veteran's and since it's Remembrance day I decided to shop online instead. I didn't know that there's an online Chinese Holiday at November 11. I think it's because 11/11 or four singles-- thus, it's for singles. I found a lot of sale promos and discounts online. Good.

My cousin K called and I told him about the two Assassin's Creed Unity figures I found on eBay. I was on a cross road whether to purchase the pair or not. I'm thinking maybe I could wait until February. I highly doubt it though. It's a stupid impulse that I bought them in the end, because they were on discount too. But if I buy them February, I'm sure they'll be twice or thrice the price.

Today's also the day I bought stuff that I've only had less than half of my credit limit left. It's all for pasalubong.

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I woke up so out of the mood. It's the season changing. I may have been shocked of the temperature dipping early this year. I pushed myself to go to work today. The weather is terrible, with dark skies accompanied with snow flurries. I just laughed at myself for wanting to stay home, but no. My work days and days off are very off sync. I made it to the office at 3:41pm, but I'm thinking of going home. No. What made it hard, I guess is today's Monday. Even everybody else look under the weather.

4:45pm. It's dark outside already. Sigh. Still a long way to go. I'm working on a difficult project too. Mondays.
5pm. Slow in the office center. My mind is wandering. I need to keep it together. It's for the kids!! I honestly want to go home.
5:30pm. I got to stop looking at the clock! Time goes slower when I do.
6pm. 2 hours down. This is a grueling grind. Still slow and I'm waiting for 7pm to come already. I'm wondering why today is unusually hard. Maybe it's my mood?
6:30pm. Aww man! Let's go to 7pm already! 7pm! 7pm!
7pm. It's 7pm! 3 hours has passed! My mood slightly-- just slightly-- improved because we're over the hedge. Bring it home now! But man, the office productivity is still a slump. If I could go home, I would.
7:15pm. I got a complete and flow picked up a bit. Though, I'm troubled by my first complete if it's a clean one.
7:30pm. Wahsroom break to relieve myself from the monotony. I still want to go home already, but let's do it right.
8pm. Wow. 4 hours. Maybe it's because I'm counting the time, but today is slow.
8:15pm. Washroom break and I'm shaken stirred crazy.
8:39pm. Gone to break. I'm sighing like crazy. I don't know why. I just have less than an hour to go after break.
9:05pm. Went back to work. Absolutely felt like time slowed and I was getting impatient.
9:45pm. I took a washroom break and I felt so relieved that I'm almost going home.
10pm. Gone home. I survived? I survived Monday!

That was amazing. I'm tired of this work, I think. I'm not enjoying it and maybe I should try something else next year.

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I woke up feeling so tired and unwell. Just as I was opening my eyes on my bed, my ate C said that she has work today. I told her that it's okay. I decided to be still and rest today. The both of us weren't able to attend church. Anyway, I've given everyone in church my heads up. I feel heavy and I wanted to stay put today. I hope this is not a trend.

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Saturday morning. As much as I wanted to fast, I think it would be detrimental, now that I feel much better from my fever last night. I went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. It's a pretty heavy and unorthodox breakfast if you ask me. It's beef steak, with gravy, some veggies on the side, with mashed potato and rice. Weird, huh? After breakfast, I turned my computer on. For some reason, it was acting unusual and I started feeling nervous. It's because I deleted an Nvidia driver. Fortunately, system restore fixed my problem. I'm stumped, because my computer doesn't have Nvidia chips in it. I'm thinking the driver might have something to do with its factory settings. I'm using a ATI-- sorry an AMD Radeon videocard instead. That's why I thought of deleting the Nvidia driver. But it messed up my booting and my screen shows nothing but eternal blackness. I was on the verge of 'refreshing' my PC as well. If I lost my cool, I might've refreshed it and erased my applications.

At that point, I examined myself if I did something wrong. Maybe I forgot to pray? Maybe this is a sign?

My cousin K called and he's asking me if I want to go eat breakfast at Pampanga's. That's around 9:30pm. Hmm... I already ate. Though I realized this after I showered.

I texted him after getting ready. Finished a CnC game too.

I told my sister we're having breakfast, but she was still a lumbering beast in her cave. Do not disturb!

The three of us, cousin K, M, and I had Pampanga style breakfast. I called home and asked my dad what he wants. I also wanted to ask him to pay for his portion, but naaah. The three of us ate there and had a lengthy chat about random things. Mostly it's about things happening back home. We went home around 11am. I just had my usual tapsilog, or beef jerky, garlic fried rice and two sides of scrambled eggs. When I got home, my sister's finally woke up. We can go shopping now. I need her opinion on something. I called cousin K again, because he was still game... and he was still driving.

We drove to Polo Park first to check for winter jackets. I'm just appalled by the price tags. Oh my. some of them cost more than $500. Really?!

After we canvassed a reasonable choice, the three of us went to search for other items. I remembered that it's kuya Ben's birthday today, and I bought him a sweater. It was a snap decision. Just like that. With time running down, we drove to KP next to try and continue our shopping search. We eventually found what we needed and got back home. At 7pm, we visited auntie Z's house for kuya Ben's birthday celebration.

My poor debit card. It just wasn't able to get a break today. My sister and cousins had to come with me because I was craving for Starbucks. They hitched a ride with my debit card too. All of us went home at 9pm. Dad just stayed at home, because he's sick.

Oh yeah, we also missed the opportunity to photograph the full moon. Tonight's full moon was low on the horizon, so we could've taken pictures with the moon along with different architecture.

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Friday. It's time to work and I hope that today's improved than last Friday. Work is okay during the first five hours. But at the last hour, boy, I got sour from a negative retort. I'm glad that's over. I got home and I thought I could do some more things in the late evening. But apparently this change in the season and the cold weather is adjusting my body. It feels like my body wants to lie down early. I sent a message to my fellows at church about tomorrow. My physical body is longing for rest.

When I went to sleep, I felt like I'm coming down with a cold. I was sneezing and chilling. My body's hot-- not 'hot' as in 'sexy'-- well I am sexy-- but I meant that I may be coming with a fever too. As much as I wanted to do something tonight, since it's the weekend tomorrow and I have the off from practice as well, I couldn't stay up late. I thought I could chat with my girlfriend, but I said I'll need to lie down since my body's not apparently well.

I'm planning to go shopping tomorrow. I don't know how much I'm planning to spend though. Wow, I can finally look forward to tomorrow with no obligations.

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I told my dad of my intention of buying a 50" TV and he just said go for it.

I'm supposed to go shopping today, but the weather turned me off. I felt like I wanted to sleep some more.

What kind of frustrated me today is that I just let myself hesitate to do the things I wanted to do. In the end, the hesitation left me doing nothing significant. I'm so silly. The reason of my hesitation is because I didn't want to be left hanging. Yup. I'm in disbelief at myself *shakes head*.

Pretty much my day was like a stay on bed Thursday. And some shopping online.

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Pretty straightforward Wednesday. I worked on 3 different projects and then I was glad to go home, because I got tomorrow off from work. I should also start buying stuff for the folks at home eh? The thing is, I don't know how much I'll allot for the whole pasalubong thing. But I don't want to hold back either. I'm going for my 8th year here in Canada and I haven't gone home yet. When's the next time I'm going home? I don't know. I'm thinking Christmas of 2016. Wow, it's not even the 19th of January and I'm already thinking that far.

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I sent an to my professor about not being sure if I could make it to class. I'll be helping my brother and sister-in-law in their Citizenship Oath Taking this afternoon. I'm sure that the oath is today, unlike last week. I felt like crap in the morning, but I prayed to God and sought to push that I'd face what will happen today. Whatever happens, I'll take it. I showered and they picked me up at 12:45pm. My cousin M was with us. We got to the venue at 1:17pm. The oath starts at 1:45pm, but my brother already put in an hour's worth of parking. I asked him why did he put only an hour's worth when the oath won't start until 1:45pm and so our parking will expire at 2:17pm. Maybe he failed to realize, because he's excited? It was a mistake. I guess we'll just add more credits later. My cousin M could do it instead.

The program started past 2pm. We moved to the side of the hall, so we can see my brother and sister-in-law. Around 2:12pm, my cousin M ran for the parking lot to add credits to the timer. When the judge started to speak, I remembered when we were taking our oath for our citizenship. The judge shared us his story and experience of how is great Canada and then explained how today's event is important. He called for the candidates one by one or per family. Each received their certificates and their cards. There were 80 candidates from 20 countries. They sang O'Canada afterwards. The judge gave his last remarks and congratulated everyone. Finally, we were allowed for the picture taking. It's important so that you have more proof of your citizenship, kinda' like taking your picture for your birthday -- but as a Canadian. We were off before 3pm.

We drove to Kazoku, Japanese / Korean restaurant. Kazoku is Japanese for 'family' I think. We had crispy sushi, seafood ramen, bibimbap, and chicken teriyaki. My brother and my sister-in-law had just gotten their citizenship and they're already talking about traveling. Excited much? I think so.

It was quite a long drive at Pembina. We left around 4:45pm The weather was super gloomy too. The sky was dark gray all over and it was flurrying. It's cold in the car, gray outside, and I'm full and sleepy; I'm not sure if I'm still going to school at 6pm. The weather's turned for the dark. I asked my brother to drive me to campus after he drops off my cousin M. So then, I decided to go to school. I think I can still make it.

Around 5pm and at the front of the house, I ran to get my bag and my stuff. Then I ran back to the car. Dad just arrived and he's wondering where I was going. I don't know why they don't know my schedule. I have school of course. After dropping off my cousin M, and relieving himself, my brother returned to the car with food on hand. Wow, he just went inside to use the washroom and then he got food that fast. We just ate, didn't we?

We drove to the university next and it's already too dark. It's the fall season and the daylight will just keep getting shorter until spring. Though I feel like I have a headache and I'm tired, I have a feeling I should still go to school. The lesson here is just I tried to hang on. And it paid off. I received 5% or more of my grade, because there was a mini-case study before the end of the class. If I haven't gone to class, I would've missed that 5% and I need all the marks right now to get a breathing space for the final exam. I got home and I was so tired and I slept early readying myself for tomorrow.

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I'm not feeling well today, so I called in sick. It's like my body is complaining that it's tired. Well, my sick call definitely ruined the schedule for this week and next week. Come evening, I just went out a bit to have dinner over at my tito and tita's new apartment. I got home around 9:45pm. I really have to fix my off schedule so that I won't feel like work is monotonous. It's tiring indeed. I hoped that Monday could've worked to my benefit. But I'm lacking motivation these days. It's like my mind fleeted on other things and I just lost interest at work. Wait. Since when did I had interest for the work I do? I'm least interested in it, but it gets my tuition fee and my stuff paid. Sigh. Maybe if I start working on my side projects again, I'd get back to my normal self.

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Even with my free extra hour, I slept at 4am. My mom was on Skype talking to my auntie for four hours! Four hours! I was losing my senses too. I had to stay up, because she didn't know how to use Skype!

I got up at 9:15am and went to church at 10am. It was just me and ate C again while the rest of my fam attended WFGC. Service went on until 12:45pm. Practice for the anniversary followed. I went home at 2pm and the house was still empty. Figures. They were still at church. What are they doing? Are they having a meeting already? I took a nap, because I'm still tired from my mom's Skype escapade. I thought I'd be able to eat outside as planned. Too tired.

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Saturday. I've decided to celebrate my birthday today with the rest of my relatives. At first, there were concerns because no one's sure who will be coming over. I still kept my cool and went to church for practice at 1pm.

The youth practice didn't really go out as planned. But I found myself really tired in the afternoon. The proper practice for tomorrow's praise and worship only started at 4:45pm. I told them my piece about what's happening in my life regarding where I'll attend church. I had to tell them, because I want to show them my respect and courtesy that I'm thinking about them. I want to let them know what I'm doing since they deserve to know. I just didn't want to leave just like that. If I left, there will only be two regular instrumentalists and a heap of mentees behind (I have 3 proteges). That's not good. However, it is my intention to join my family. We want to be together.

I got home at 6pm. The guests still haven't arrived. But they actually got here at 7pm. I wasn't worried from the start if guests will actually arrive. Before we started eating, I lead the prayer and gave thanks to God for the food, for the year and for the next chapter of my life. Also, Chicago Bulls won, thanks to Jimmy Butler's freak event of getting fouled by Wiggins at the last second of the 4th quarter.

The folks went home at 10pm. I remembered that we're falling back the clock one hour. That means we get a free hour! It's fall indeed. Then I had another chat with my grandparents.

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