Too many high expectations. Too many disappointments. I didn't get the job from another interview. I was hoping so much from it, but I'm only disappointed. I really don't know where to look, but the search should not stop. What's sad is, even though I'm down, I have no time to be down. What is the worth of my studies?

Labels: blogs

I feel like I just want to give up. Nothing is happening to me. No work gets finished and I can't find any significant progress on my dreams. I know I shouldn't be negative, but I'm tired of being a romantic when reality just smashes my face on what I really am. I feel like I can't really become a writer, because my work doesn't get noticed. I feel like I can't really become a videogame developer, because I don't know much about programming. I feel like I can't become an artist, because I don't know how to draw fast and my art is crap. I feel like I won't ever measure into anything, because I'm so far behind and I don't really know what I'm good in life. The things that I consider to be good at are only mediocre. Other people get noticed fast, and I wonder what do they have that I don't? I'm almost 30 and I still have no proper direction in life. All I have are dreams that stay as dreams. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of working toward nothing. And I feel like I've just wasted my time on everything. I'm a failure. I don't know if I'll amount into anything. Failed interviews. Broken heart. I have a crooked soul trying to stay up straight. I've got tired eyes in the falling rain. I am lost, dazed, and filled with questions. I bet no one would even read this anyway, so I'm just kidding myself. Although, to where should I go?

Labels: blogs