I started the day with a bit of dread inside, which is unbelievable. I'm trying to overcome myself out of getting lazy. I think I'm getting lazy -- that's it. And I think my work is dreadful to the point that it's paralyzing. I won't do anything that I'd enjoy, because I know I'll be left hanging and that I have to work tomorrow. Do you know that feeling? It's stupid and I get nothing done. It's idiotic. I want to beat myself up, because of such mindset. I gotta get my mind out of the gutter.

Today's work isn't bad if it wasn't for my equipment. Anyway, I just need to survive today and tomorrow, and get some rest on Thursday and Friday, because I'm working on the weekends again. Bleah.

I'm inching closer to dropping my course. Say it ain't so. If I knew I'd get this slumped, I wouldn't be registering for anything this winter term. I can still finish within two years and get two diplomas. I badly need to refresh myself.

Also, I need to get productive with my literature. I want to start this new novel, but I'm having a conflict with my characters and my plots. I'm pleased with all my other novels as they're left open ended and flexible. But this novel, I call it Project X, has made me fall in love with the characters I've created and I think I want to make the story happen. The setting is the contemporary world and it has romantic elements in it. It's an action story, not a cheesy love story. I'm still tilting my head how I would approach writing the story.

I left the office at 10pm and arrived at home around 10:20pm. We needed to go to the bank so I could send money to my grandma, and to my contacts for the February 'package'.

Thank God again that, according to a second opinion, my grandma is not going to have the surgery. Instead, the doctor recommended that she'd take medications. He's the same doctor that helped my godfather back to work after suffering from a heart attack; it left him immobile, but now he's back to work.

My grandma's having a hard time walking, complaining severe pain on her hip and her back. Initially, the first doctor recommended her to receive a surgery. However, according to her MRI results, the second doctor says that they could treat her with medications. Moreover, the second doctor explained that my grandma's too old for surgery. It's an answered prayer, because my dad is concerned about where he'd get the money to pay the expenses, $7500.

I rode with my dad on our way to fetch mom from work. Apparently, they're laying off people again in the night shift. This issue happens every year. I'm not worried. We're not worried. We came home, ate dinner, and then we watched an Animal Planet show. This is my Tuesday.

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