It has been 123 days! Today is a day to remember, for me personally. I just discovered that my dad has a big problem at work. To sum it up, he's running too many responsibilities that he wants to resign. He's very tired, and and always at the forefront of doing most of the work that the engineers should be doing. He's not accredited as engineer here, but he's always been an engineer back in the Philippines. In order for him to be an engineer, he has to study and pass the exam here. But I've been told already, about 2 years ago that he's having a lot of difficulty managing so much with pay that doesn't suit on the amount of work that he does. I can't really make a comment or give him an advise, but all I could do is to pray for him. I've meditated and I took a day off from work, because I really didn't feel well today.

I cried in my room too. I mean, he's done so much sacrifice for us. He's sending money to his folks at home, he's helping two of my relatives study for post-secondary, he's providing for us, he left his grandeur job in the Philippines so we could find a good start here, he's serving the Lord, and he's an Elder in the church. No one is perfect, but I can't help but ask at his age, why do they give so much work to him? It's because of his work ethic. They rely on him and trust him. But I don't know why there's so much of this work-- like so much-- and it makes me wonder what the other people in the office are doing? It's ironic, because the one thing that my dad left in the Philippines is bringing work at home, but now that we're here in Canada, his routine of business is back.

Additionally, I've prayed for my mom. I prayed that she'd find a lighter job for her age. She's also done her sacrifice for us. Take for example, leaving her work to take care of my older brother when he was little. She took care of me too when I was little, a full time homemaker. And she's left her VP position in the Philippines to pursue and hope for our good start in Canada. I have so much right now, and sometimes I shake my head at myself why I feel discontent. But today, I don't really care about myself, and I turn on to two of the most patient people that I know in my whole life, the best parents in the world, my mom and dad. It gave me a reason, to do better in life. And God knows what I've told Him. He knows my dreams. And He knows the answer what I've asked Him. May 3. I'll wait upon Him. I'll look on You. It's just a matter of time. God is our victory and He is here.

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