Sigh. Where should I start?

First of all, today's a makeup shift for the work I missed this past Saturday due to my allergic reaction. If I haven't had that, I would have probably gone to work and be enjoying a Friday day off. However, due to my learning style by experience -- well one of my learning styles -- I kinda' signed up for a new schedule. I've added Fridays now. Slaps forehead.

I'm telling you, I woke up at 11am, and it felt like crap knowing I have to work on a Friday night that used to be a day off. I watched cartoons for crying out loud, while passing some time. I couldn't go back to sleep anymore, so I got up and slouched on the couch. Haha. It was clear that I was bummed out. I kept imagining and wondering what would happen if I didn't work today. Wishful thinking much? Yes.

The reason why I signed up for Fridays is that I just couldn't feel my Friday days off. So since I can't feel them, I should just go to work and earn money, right? Wrong. The truth is my perception is wrong. Now, I fully understand why Fridays are still supposed to be a day off. One reason is that if I miss Saturdays, I can make it up on Fridays instead of Sundays -- which I dread even more. The other reason is that I'm just not spending each day off properly.

I can now understand the saying, "We don't realize what we have until we lose them." It's true. Now that I have to work Fridays, I've understood the value of a Friday day-off, or a day off, clearer and more convincingly. I realized one question directed to myself while I was in the office, and it was hot, and the AC is broken, and everyone's just hot headed: should I be at work or should I just be enjoying a day-off if I had one today? What should I be doing instead? If I can answer that question, I would be more comfortable designing my schedule.

Another reason why I signed up for Fridays is that I have a hard time sleeping on Friday nights. Probably because I'm too bummed doing anything on a Friday off, so I just lazed on my bed all day. And come at night, I'm all energetic and active. Since I lazed on my bed all day, I try all sorts of things to catch up on my share of fun things. But I miss out because there's just not time enough left. That's poor allocation right there. Tsk tsk. I have to slap some sense to myself.

It was just a difficult day for someone I know. A friend of mine at work, got into a heated argument with one of my supervisors. I hope it doesn't escalate anymore. Both of them apparently agreed that they won't report the incident to the higher ups. I left the office past 11pm today. I'm just super tired. I'm not going to do this again. To my future self, don't do it. Pick something else besides a Friday extra shift. Fridays are there as a safety net and learn to enjoy your day off. I'm sure you have a lot of things to do other than going to the office. I'm sure they'll be more fun. Just learn how to allocate your time on each and you'll be able to spend a good Friday off and be able to sleep afterwards.

Now, you know.

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