Lord, I don't know if I am over my head reaching the point where I am now. I don't have much, I'm weak and I'm poor, but I'll love her with all I got. You know that I have this fear of disappointing other people. I know that there will be a point of struggle in the future and I'm scared. This is what the devil tells me, but with You in my life, and from what You've shown me, I know that I just have to press on and follow Your lead. She doesn't know that I cry, because I'm so happy. It's just that until now, I can't believe that she's my girlfriend. It's still a long journey ahead of us, I love her more than ever, but I haven't even begun. When we'll see each other on that day, I'm a bit afraid. That fear is creeping in my head. I've got all sorts of worries in my head, but I'm not going to leave her. I will court her again if I have to. She holds my heart and I want her to be by my side. I'll bring her family if I have to. All sorts of concerns and thoughts are popping in my head. A lot of what-ifs. I don't want to ruin anything and that's what's scaring me. But I have to be strong.

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