Today is officially my worst day at work. Just a notch above not being fired or terminated. I'm so down right now, because I've been considered unreliable for missing my shifts. I don't know if I'll complain or if it would even help because I'm missing out due to my illness, my studies, and my life in general. I'm eligible for a wage increase this review. What that means is that even though I'm actually doing a great performance, I'm not getting a wage increase after my 500 hours. I'm at my 100 right now. I guess my consolation is this sad news didn't happen at my 499th hour.

When I went to work today. It felt like crap because of the things that might not arrive on time. It was so tough today. I got home and I was teary eyed at the bus. I cried while walking too. I just don't have any choice, do I? It puts me in perspective if I should ever care about tomorrow. I'm so tired of this job really. I feel different now. It's like I don't want to go back. It's the strain. But I'm going home right now and I need pocket money. I also want to bless my mom and dad for everything they've done. That's why I'm looking at a major purchase before this year ends.

They taught us advising today. That means I'll be teaching other people how to do their job. I wonder if my supervisors think that I'm unreliable. I changed my schedule yesterday. It's only Wednesday and I'm barely hanging on towards the weekend. The final exam is fast approaching. Despite everything that's happening right now, I must keep it together.

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