Today is the last day of 2014. I've got a lot of things to thank for. So many. With all the joys and frowns, the comfort and pain, the victories and struggles I've had, I'm thankful for surviving the year without losing my mind. Flashback to January 1, I remember my prayers back at 1/365. The conclusion is: God has answered my prayers and my heart's desire. It was truly a wonderful year for me. I've learned so much about life, I've experienced happiness, and I've received invaluable things that money can't buy. It's true that I've lost and failed on some trials, that I've disappointed a few people, and that I've made a number of mistakes in life this 2014, but how I overcame all of these is what I cherish the most. God carried me throughout 2014.

You know at the start of 2014, I've had this belief that 2014 will be a stepladder to something greater. I nod in agreement, because it does seem like it is a stepladder. It's a stepladder to something greater this 2015. However, I shouldn't let it get inside my head; I pray to God that I won't fall off this stepladder. Honestly, I pray for an even greater year this coming 2015. The first thing that I pray for, is an even greater space for Spiritual comfort. Let me know more of you, my Lord. I pray for an even further spiritual growth this 2015. Let Your will be done.

While I'm writing this, I've realized that it was difficult to write everyday. It was tiring. It was brain exhausting. My cousin K stopped at day 39 because he didn't know what else to write. I was also on the brink of quitting, but when I read that I was over at entry 100, I decided to push on.

One time, I got tired of writing online and almost quit altogether even though I've made over 100 entries. However, I remembered that the whole point of this task is to go back to the basics of blogging. I kept writing on my notebook instead by keeping the main points of the day. It worked and I would transfer my 'drafts' to the Internet once I get a free time. Once a blogger, always a blogger.

I confess that there were times when there was nothing noteworthy and this is also the reason my cousin K stopped writing. I guess I personally didn't want to quit, because I want to become better in writing and documenting events. I want to immortalize my past. This brings me to a spiritual revelation of how the Bible was written. In comes the Exodus too. Remember how the God's people kept complaining while Moses was leading them to the Promised Land despite the miracles of God that they've seen with their own eyes. Well, I don't want to be like that-- I don't want to forget God's goodness when I'm out of the season. I want to write what happened to me by God's grace when I needed help, when I was down, or when I was feeling depressed. I want to read back to how God took care of me during my weaknesses. For it is a spiritual achievement to be able to remember clearly and identify God's favour. So I decided to ultimately continue until the end.

Thinking about it, the whole 365 project wasn't easy. Not everyone likes to write. I think I'm the only one in the family who likes to write. There are 365 written entries and some of them won't even make sense to other people, but as long as it makes sense to me, as long as I can remember what happened to that day, then I'm all satisfied.

During the time I've started writing this, 2014 will be over in 6 hours and we're off to another start again. Something's telling me that 2015 will get even better. Well for one thing, I'll be going back to the Philippines on January, and I'll be there for 5 weeks. That's something to look forward to, isn't it? Well, what are my plans for 2015? I have a few ideas, but I can't tell them yet. There's one thing I can tell you, expect a vault at the end of 2015.

What I hate about this year is I lacked the drive to resume writing my novels. Ugh. The reason is either being busy or being too bored to come up with anything. But if I was bored, then I shouldn've known better and squeezed my brain to write something. The ideas didn't flow well this year, but that's my fault. It's hard to resume something you forgot how to resume. When you stopped writing an ongoing story and come back at it after a while, you just can't figure it out how to write its continuation without reading the previous entry and brainstorming again. And you have to make sure that what you supply would not make your story inconsistent.

It's frustrating to have the time, but couldn't find that essential piece to place on the story's puzzle. I don't want to decay next year. I have to be firm to myself that I should keep writing no matter how bored or bland I feel. Good, I wrote that. Let it serve as a reminder. I hope that this year was a lesson for me that I should be consistent in writing my novels -- if I ever want them to work for me in the future. That's right, I'm seriously going after publishing a book.

Speaking of consistent, don't even get me started on my fansites. Ugh. Remember that June deadline? Yeah, I don't remember too. There are only 3 published sites on beta out of my planned 16.

I had a lot of first hand experiences this year. 2014 was the year when we've created our channel at Youtube. And it's also the year where we've started DOT Games, where we make apps for the iOS. I don't know if the whole deal is worth mentioning. But yeah. May we find favor in our endeavors.

I've met a lot of people, made new friends, and I don't recall making enemies at all -- funny right? I've made new relationships. It's going to be fun having a company of such people from now on.

What's worth mentioning is just this July 2014, I've found that relationship I was looking for. My girlfriend is a Christian and it's what I've been praying for ever since I remember. It's sad that I lost that blog entry where my prayer was kind of specific and it was written also during a new year. I might have written it back in the new year of 2007. But yes, I've confessed to God my heart's desire and I can only shake my head looking at how He had answered my prayer. I meant by 'how' is the time involved and the events leading to finding her. How long have I been waiting? I don't know. What's important is being patient, for patience is a virtue we must all have. I didn't know I had it in me to create cheesy music videos too. Like seriously. I remember my classmate remarked one time that if find my girlfriend I'd be a cheese factory.

A cheese factory? Me? Pshh. As if. I'm just honest. As honest as the sun shines on the flowers to their delight that which the sight of her completes my day. As honest as never holding back in giving forward all of within me as many times as it takes just to hear those words of 'I love you.' As honest as nothing will compare to the joy of seeing her smile. No. I don't think I'm a cheese factory.

I tell you, there were a lot of pleasant surprises. To think that I passed my term this year despite missing a lot of classes while preparing for my sister's grand debut. And I mean, I missed a LOT of classes. I even thought of dropping it. But no, it is a pleasant surprise and a big deal for me to pass everything. Even my joke of buying a new TV this year became true. I remember uttering such a joke back in December 2013. And now I have it. 50" and all. A Smart TV too. For God provides. It's my sought after 120hz TV too. And it's not even a big deal for me anymore. It's time to look after my new project in life.

Yes, I believe so that 2015 will be a greater year for me. 2014 is the stepladder. I remembered my Pastor's message this Sunday, that I should show God and to other people that I am improving as a Christian. I leave it to my Creator where I would find the new frontiers of my life. I will forever cherish these memories as I move on. Now that 2014 comes to its conclusion and the 365 project is finally complete, I just want to ask: what's next?

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