I can't describe how there's something wrong in my family right now. My dad hints that he wants to go home in heaven. Mom hints that she wants to leave the house one day. And both my mom and dad aren't getting along well with my sister-in-law. My brother is quiet and I are quiet and we're not really talking too much to each other. My younger sister is barely at home too. I'm getting nervous about post-graduation and I'm not getting the hours that I need, so I want to just get away from this tense atmosphere. Cable's broke right now and the shed needs work which adds irritation to my dad who's maintaining his sugar so he can't eat what he wants to eat. He truly tells that he doesn't mind going to heaven, because he has insurance and because he can't enjoy life anymore now that his diet has been significantly affected. He's not happy anymore. Mom says she's not happy too with how things are happening in our home, and she's still looking for a job. She's been laid off last month, and she needs to wait until September. I need to wait for October to proceed to my convocation and get my diplomas. It's hard to live in a household of 'troubleshooters'. And after 11 years of hard-work, such as studying and working hard to sustain my own future, this is what I get? Burned out family with a looming disharmony. Then my passion gets destroyed when Photobucket ruined my outlet for creativity after 12 years. It's difficult to find enthusiasm if life is like this -- especially when home no longer feels like home.

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