Today's June 1st everybody! We're on the half of the year already. It also means summer is around the corner! Wait wait wait... It's not June yet. It's still the 31st of May. Crap.

Anyway. Work was weird at the first hour. They kept switching me to different projects. Three times they did. Then it was a tiring Saturday afternoon that followed. So tiring. I'm just glad that I was able to go home after 5pm. When I went home, I was sent a text message if I wanted to go to my Auntie D's house for barbecue. I said it wouldn't be a problem. 7:30pm they picked me up instead. Too tired to go there by myself.

There wasn't much people with us. My relatives went fishing today, and that explains the plentiful fish on the grills and the barbecue on the side. I enjoyed a watermelon while watching the NBA Western Conference Finals. Spurs advances. I'm not a Spurs fan, my underdog teams didn't make it unfortunately. Around 10:30pm, I decided to go home. I was too tired to do something fun. It's Sunday tomorrow so I turned to my bed early.

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Friday. Now I really appreciate the value of a day off. I signed up for Friday evenings, because I was cynical about the day off I get on a Friday. In the past, my Fridays off were nothing but a transition into Saturday, meaning nothing good really happens or nothing really fun happens for me during a Friday off. I would wake up late in the afternoon and know that half of the day has passed me by, so what good is half a day off? If this keeps up, wouldn't it be better if I just went to work? The answer is... no.

I learned the truth today. I admit that I'm new to this kind of schedule. I've been working on Fridays just to make up for the time I've lost, but money isn't really important right now. And that's coming from a guy who's saving for pocket money going home. Yes, it is still important, but I meant that money isn't a priority that I should be making up hours to earn more. Take for example, this afternoon I felt a heavy heart leaving my mom who has a fever, so I can go to work.

I teared a bit when I bid goodbye because I was leaving her for work when I know that she was lying on the bed with a fever. If I didn't work today, I could've stayed home instead and be with her. In her state, I'd be more comfortable staying at home. Even though that the fever had subsided and the healing had already worked its way, I still felt terrible leaving the house and locking up the door.

I signed up for Fridays as well, because I couldn't go to sleep on Friday nights and thus I miss my Saturday shifts with all sorts of sickness. It's true that I hate my Saturday shifts, but that doesn't mean that I would exhaust myself on a Friday evening just I can go to sleep on a Friday night. What kind of loser thinking is that? I could still do other fun stuff that would tire me, right? But working instead? Again, I'm not a workaholic. Far from it. I stay far from it actually. I'm an easy going guy. So I say no now.

When I got home, my dad was in disbelief as well. You're already working Saturdays and you're working Fridays too? And this is coming from my dad? I know. Dads want their children to be productive. Now he's wondering why I'm doing this. I said that I learn through experience. It's one of my learning styles, I explained. I told him that I now know the feeling and so I'm going to abstain Fridays. I'm used to Thursdays too, but I shouldn't be signing up for more hours on a job that I hate. I did and I know I'm odd.

I left the office early after 9:35pm. But I passed by the cafe to get a chilled latte first. Then I went straight home past. I arrived at 10:20pm and had dinner. Afterwards I called my favourite girl over Viber and we had a chat for almost an hour on computer networks, Coco Martin and Sarah G's new movie, destinations, the Apple store and even nail polish. If I didn't have any work tomorrow morning, I would've just ignored sleep altogether. One more reason that I wouldn't sleep tonight (even though I just told you that I should be sleeping Friday nights) is that my ate C and her daughter, the two folks staying with us temporarily, were staying at their newly acquired apartment. That means that I could party tonight. But no, I have work. Sigh. Anyway, I'm never signing up for Fridays as much as possible. Just like working Sundays, working Friday in our office is not a good idea.

- To my future self.

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A much needed respite today. I'm still waiting for my package. I was hoping that it would arrive today. It looks like it's going to arrive in Canada to be tracked next week. I tried doing random stuff in the afternoon and in the evening just to get my mind off of some things. I tried revisiting my ongoing stories today. Going away and revisiting your stories, as an aspiring writer, really helps give you fresh idea on how to resume it. Unfortunately, I was too tired to pull my sleeves up and get writing. Bummer. I'm going to sleep without writing anything on it.

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Wednesday. Time to work. On my way to work two guys were up the wall while the policemen were frisking them. Bystanders casually were just walking by but without stealing a glance. Although I thought that it was too casual. If that was in the Philippines, people would start getting cellphone pictures and a crowd will gather. I think it's drug related. Work was straightforward today too. The last two hours gave me a bit productivity. I'm thinking of getting a haircut tomorrow. I really wish I could change my schedule next week. Anyway, the only consolation I have this week that's work related is that Friday is payday.

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Tuesday. I woke up at quarter to 2pm when my mom shouted that my package was here. The first of the 12 packages I'm expecting is here. It's lootcrate! Woo!

That was fast, I thought. But I was expecting my 2nd of the 12 along with the 1st already. They're just the same. Both of are for the month of May and I've signed up for 2 subscriptions. Don't ask. Anyway, I haven't opened it yet. I'm going to open them when I got both to check the contents if anything's damaged.

I prepared early today, ate pancit canton, and showered. I slouched on the couch just waiting and then I went to work. Work was busy again, but super slow. I can only say that it's super slow. But I clearly saw that God wanted it that way. I'll just speak in codes for now, D-4C, M-0. And D is in front. Wow. I left the office at 10pm. I'm just glad that today was over. But I shook my head as to how amazing were the turning of events.

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Mondays. I remember Garfield saying that he hates Mondays. Mom left for work and gave me a last minute note about the money she left for 'padala'. It's just that in my opinion, she could've told me a lot earlier than the last minute when she was in a hurry. I got all confused and had to change my plans for today.

When money is involved, I'd say that there should be a proper planning. She also had to call me back when she boarded the bus about it too -- she had to adjust something. I placed everything in the envelope and called my cousin. Since she wasn't able to contact her sister, mom re-scheduled the money transfer to today. And I'm stuck at home waiting.

Anyway, my plan was not important and so I just stayed at home. My cousin replied and said that they were going to pick it up at 5pm. I slapped my forehead as it is still 2pm and I've already changed my mind. Should I change my mind again? I don't know, I told myself while I kept clicking the mouse of my computer.

Shortly after, my sister dropped by and collected the envelope, and my mind asked, "What in the world?" I'm staying here and my sister's going to pick it up after all? I just laughed hysterically and shook my head. I could've left the house and gone somewhere. It's a Monday day off that I need, but I guess today's a homestay Monday for a loaded week. Hey, it wasn't really bad.

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It's Sunday and we woke up at 8:45am. At first, I wasn't sure what time we're going to church, because today's our first day in our new building. Now I know the reason why we have to be extra early. It was also raining in the morning. Parking was a problem in our new place. All I could say is that if the wall between the two spaces get opened, the wide space would be ideal. As it stands now, our old place is wider. But it's just the first day and granted that there's still a lot of constructing to do. Come lunch, I taught my drum trainee a basic roll-on. We left the church just past 2:30pm.

We stopped by for halo-halo before coming home. Even though that we had lunch, I still wanted to eat halo-halo. The rain started really pouring in the afternoon. We were driving and it was a bit refreshing to see the wipers in action. We got home past 3pm. Pastor called afterwards and explained why he had to leave early. Since my dad delivered the message to the congregation, to be honest, we didn't really think of anything odd why the Pastor had to leave. But coming from a third party, it might raise a question. Anyway, I think my dad also knew that the Pastor left; and both of us knew that it was urgent, because a brother in the congregation left to pick up someone from the old building -- they went there thinking we were still at the old place.

The news was that my brother in the congregation was involved in a car accident and the Pastor had to see him immediately. I felt really bad for my fellow Christian, because he was just picking up someone. And he had to be involved in an accident? It requires surgery too. My mom and dad followed afterwards in the evening.

Took a nap and woke up. I feel refreshed. I hesitated calling anyone else for a Sunday night out. I wasn't in the mood to take initiative. Plus, I'm saving.

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Woke up at 9:45am, said my prayers, took a shower, didn't eat breakfast since I'm fasting every Saturday, and went to work at 11am. I looked around for my friend in the office, but it looks like he's taken a sick day today. They said that it's going to be a short shift. What a relief.

The first two hours were slow in the office. But it picked up when they made an announcement that we'll wrap up even earlier. Today was productive, but the air in the office was stale. Maybe I'm still tired from yesterday. This is when I realized that I shouldn't have signed up for Fridays, but again-- nothing ventured, nothing gained. Now I know. It started raining and I had left past 4pm. When I looked up the schedule on the buses, my favourite bus route already left. I was about a minute late. I walked to another stop while it was just drizzling. I love to walk in the rain. It's been a long winter anyway.

I waited at the stop for 10 minutes. I could hear thunder. I love walking in the rain, but I hate thunders and lightning. I remembered one Pastor where he says he actually watches lightning outside on his yard. Or maybe on his porch. Anyway, he loves to watch the lightning -- especially during a thunderstorm in the night. As for me, I'll pass walking in the rain when there's thunders and lightning. Still I decided to ride the bus that drops me off at the 7-Eleven, and then I'd have to take a 10 minute walk home.

The rain subsided a bit when I got off. Then I started my trek. I was singing different songs while walking in the rain. I didn't care how I looked, but the rain wasn't all bad. It was also tricky, because there were puddles on the road just beside the sidewalk, and the cars loves to race by. I had to look around first before advancing on, so that I wouldn't get splashed -- not that the drivers don't care. I just wanted to be careful too. It's a fast lane. I had to run past the puddles each time I encounter one, but before I do, I have to make sure that the coast was clear. It felt like I was playing a game. It started to pour hard as well. Finally, I made it back home. When my sister opened the door, she said that I was drenched. I told her, "I know."

It was just a short walk, but I was wearing low cut sneakers. There was hardly any rubber on them, so my soles kinda hurt. Anyway, it was cool inside the house too and I dried myself up. I had a bit of nostalgia afterwards, because I remembered my times in the Philippines when I come home after walking in the rain. I felt joy that students have when classes are cancelled due to a typhoon. In this case, work was over and the late afternoon was just for me to relax. My folks went to my auntie's house today, but I stayed put. I mean, it's cool, it's raining, and it's the perfect time to lie on the bed.

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Sigh. Where should I start?

First of all, today's a makeup shift for the work I missed this past Saturday due to my allergic reaction. If I haven't had that, I would have probably gone to work and be enjoying a Friday day off. However, due to my learning style by experience -- well one of my learning styles -- I kinda' signed up for a new schedule. I've added Fridays now. Slaps forehead.

I'm telling you, I woke up at 11am, and it felt like crap knowing I have to work on a Friday night that used to be a day off. I watched cartoons for crying out loud, while passing some time. I couldn't go back to sleep anymore, so I got up and slouched on the couch. Haha. It was clear that I was bummed out. I kept imagining and wondering what would happen if I didn't work today. Wishful thinking much? Yes.

The reason why I signed up for Fridays is that I just couldn't feel my Friday days off. So since I can't feel them, I should just go to work and earn money, right? Wrong. The truth is my perception is wrong. Now, I fully understand why Fridays are still supposed to be a day off. One reason is that if I miss Saturdays, I can make it up on Fridays instead of Sundays -- which I dread even more. The other reason is that I'm just not spending each day off properly.

I can now understand the saying, "We don't realize what we have until we lose them." It's true. Now that I have to work Fridays, I've understood the value of a Friday day-off, or a day off, clearer and more convincingly. I realized one question directed to myself while I was in the office, and it was hot, and the AC is broken, and everyone's just hot headed: should I be at work or should I just be enjoying a day-off if I had one today? What should I be doing instead? If I can answer that question, I would be more comfortable designing my schedule.

Another reason why I signed up for Fridays is that I have a hard time sleeping on Friday nights. Probably because I'm too bummed doing anything on a Friday off, so I just lazed on my bed all day. And come at night, I'm all energetic and active. Since I lazed on my bed all day, I try all sorts of things to catch up on my share of fun things. But I miss out because there's just not time enough left. That's poor allocation right there. Tsk tsk. I have to slap some sense to myself.

It was just a difficult day for someone I know. A friend of mine at work, got into a heated argument with one of my supervisors. I hope it doesn't escalate anymore. Both of them apparently agreed that they won't report the incident to the higher ups. I left the office past 11pm today. I'm just super tired. I'm not going to do this again. To my future self, don't do it. Pick something else besides a Friday extra shift. Fridays are there as a safety net and learn to enjoy your day off. I'm sure you have a lot of things to do other than going to the office. I'm sure they'll be more fun. Just learn how to allocate your time on each and you'll be able to spend a good Friday off and be able to sleep afterwards.

Now, you know.

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Thursday. Sigh. I just did all sorts of random stuff to keep my mind occupied and relaxed. Tomorrow's Friday shift is going to be a long one. I tried watching the TV, played PC games in the afternoon and nap. But still I thought that Friday went by so fast. Why do I always like this? I slept early today. I hope my package comes tomorrow.

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Wednesday. Today was a mix of good and bad, but the good outweighed the bad. I got a form that was negative, but I didn't really care. I realized that I shouldn't really be worried about it, because God is in control. Again, I know that I did my best today. I'll just speak in jargon now, 2C on Ph3. Good job. Even an NI won't sour my day today. My friend at the back had a hard time in the office and I can tell you that he was angry and tired. I left the office past 10pm, still carrying on. I still have my hopes for the best. I sighed knowing that I have a Thursday off, and have a long back-to-back shifts on Friday and Saturday. It's going to be a loaded week. I'll be busy for the next 2-3 weeks. So whatever. I need money anyway. If only I didn't have much burden from work, I'd be a happy camper this summer.

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To my future self,

I want you to read well and think hard. You started this day with energy. It's still too early and you decided to head back to bed. When you woke up, you felt like you wanted to quit your job. What happened? Remember this day. This is the day of epiphany. I felt free in the office. I forgot how discouragement is a language of the enemy. That feeling of wanting to quit, I should've remembered that it's obviously the work of the enemy. Fear and anxiety can be cast down. It all depends on your voice. Shout. Command it like you mean it. These feelings are not from God. Thus you know where these come from. So I prayed very hard and sincere today. And I prayed to God to take all my burden, my sorrow, my fear and my worries. I confessed to God my frustrations in life and how I want to leave my work, but I told Him that I need money. But I also need some time off from work; that I badly need a break. I've told all of these things to Him. But all those negative feelings were gone after I rebuked them with a shout.

The truth is, it feels like you've been carrying them and not wanting to give them away until now. When you command all the negativity to leave you, say it like you mean it. You have the power. If depression strikes, rebuke it like you mean it. And at work, don't take anything personal. Look at the line on the computer. Move on, if refused. Who cares if they refuse? I really understood what it meant when God is in control. When you ask that God take over you, pray with sincerity. Pray with utmost faith. I really understood the feeling of how to be free today. Work felt so light, even though I've been placed with the harder project. At first, I thought that it was going to be a difficult day, but I kept on. And soon enough, I felt fire inside my chest like I wasn't myself-- something is taking over and I wasn't feeling worried at all. I wasn't feeling anything else except confidence. I felt so determined and I realized what was happening. This is freedom indeed. If I have this feeling to every challenging day, I'd be worry-free everyday! The feeling of adrenaline, confidence, worry-free, I was so convinced that everything was going to be okay.

God has taken over me. It's pure epiphany. I wasn't getting tired, and I kept going in the office. I didn't think about anything else, but the work in front of me. I was focused that I kinda' shook my head in disbelief. It's ironic how working fast can really affect you to be productive. It's always impossible until you see that it's done. No one cares if they refuse you. You shouldn't care and just move on. Accept it just like any disposition and move on. And when there's the feeling of negativity cast it out. It's a spiritual battle. Even when you're in front of the monitor, wrestle. Let God take over. Understand well that He's with you and that He's your boss. Give the load to God. Tell Him that you want to see Him in motion. I witnessed God in motion today. I hope that He continues His motion in your life, because I'm excited. Truly it felt, my world just opened up, and my spiritual comfort expanded even further.

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It's Victoria Day everybody! I woke up and sent a good morning to the girl I love in the Philippines. But the thing is, it's raining on this much needed holiday. I was supposed to change my schedule last week so I could trim my shifts down with a holiday-ed Monday, but I need money. I also thought I could relax on this rainy day, but my sister's friends (her cotillionaires) decided to go to our house for their practice. The practiced in the garage. Some of her friends also wanted to see my gaming desktop setup. Funny. I was able to get a nap though. That's what I told my beloved; when she asked me what I was going to do today, I just told her that I'd sleep. After this Monday, it's going to be a loaded week, I'm telling you.

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I woke up early on Sunday, around 6am. We went to church at 10am. There's potluck today too, because there's a baby shower. Oh yeah, one thing to remember is that my protege drummer played the praise and worship today. I was just at the side watching, observing, and giving tips. All I could say is that he's well on his way to being my substitute during Praise and Worship.

The baby shower proceeded after the service. I was surprised when my relatives also dropped in for the celebration. We came home at 3pm. We were held up, because mom had to talk to the different folks at church. I was passing out at this point. I wanted to get some snooze, because we're staying up late tonight. We're picking up relatives from the airport tonight.

My cousin K dropped by around 6pm. He dropped in while I was doing webdesign. He said that he and my auntie are coming along. We chilled out for a moment. I also told him that I'd be willing to pay for his share of 6-month lootcrate subscription. But he passed on it. I told him that he can pay me in December. Still he passed. I subscribed for two people anyway. Because the other one is for someone else. It's the first time that I'm trying this out and I certainly want to learn more about it. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. I like this month's theme too, adventure. There's three things there that I like: Zelda, Minecraft and Adventure Time. I'm a geek. Yes. A hoarding geek.

Cousin K left around 8pm to pick up my auntie. I sent a text message and rode with them. We left at 11pm. We arrived in the airport around 11:20pm. For the mean time, let's take some selfies!

They descended from the escalator around 11:40pm. And more photo ops ensued. Our family has grown once more. We've taken a big space when we were posing for a picture. Hey, we're all immigrants in Canada! I'm looking forward to Victoria Day. But after Victoria Day, it's going to be a loaded week. Sigh.

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I refuse to believe I'm allergic to shrimps. Since my Friday got ruined, I didn't want to go to work today. Around 8am, I was still itching and so I called in sick. How many times have I missed my Saturday shifts? I believe this is the 3rd time in just 2 months. Anyway, work isn't really important for me right now. I'm excited for tomorrow. Some relatives, from my mother's side, will be immigrating here in Canada. The'll arrive tomorrow 11:34 PM according to their arrival schedule.

I also did something silly today. I talked to my ninong in Toronto and asked him to befriend someone, a parent of someone special. They were classmates in high school, my ninong said. He also sent me his black and white, super-faded, class picture over Facebook. I literally cannot recognize any face on it. The photo is just too old.

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I can only say that I refuse to believe I am allergic to shrimp. Call it denial, but no. I've already become allergic to crabs, now shrimps?! I have no food allergies before! None ever! It was nonsense. I just can't imagine not being able to eat something because I'm allergic to it. But now I know how it feels! I started getting allergic to crabs a few years ago. So it's just recently that I developed a love-hate relationship with crabs. But now shrimps?! Shrimp is my favorite! I love seafood. I have a see food diet anyway, when I see food, I eat. But sea foods have a special place in my heart-- and my stomach. Now, I'm itching like crazy. I just noticed the allergic reaction in the afternoon after playing my PC. And when I turned it off, that's when I started itching all over. It was crazy. I had a bad feeling afterwards. You know, that feeling? I'm not going to work tomorrow, is it?

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Thursday morning, I woke up at 8am and I texted my cousin that we're eating out for breakfast. I got ready at 9am, and he still wasn't replying. Around 10am, we left for breakfast. We saw one of my relatives in the diner. They've been in Canada for 30 years already.

We ate the usual breakfast there, Pinoy style. And we talked about different things. I told him that I'd be paying, so I could use my debit card. Anyway, we left after 11am and drove to Michael's so I can check out something special. I tried looking for it, but I can't find the gadget. It's weird how I called my brother first, instead of approaching one of the clerks. And when she directed me to it, I imagined slapping my forehead because the item I was looking for was up front -- just beyond the front door. It's basically the first thing that I'd see when entering the department store. It's bigger than I thought.

Anyway, I asked some questions to the clerk and she said I didn't need something else except for the mats. $299. When I thanked the clerk, one of the customers, a young woman, approached me and said that she couldn't help overhear my conversation with the clerk. She said that I would actually be needing something more, like more cartridges. A subscription too. But as far as operating it straight from the box, I could do that. I was given another recommendation for another item. The bottom line is, I need to do my own research. Now, I'm a bit confused.

Before I forget, this is pretty important. When we were driving to Michael's, my cousin confessed a lot of things to me. It felt like the car was a confessional while I was riding shotgun. A lot of things. I didn't know he had it in him to do such stupid things. Stupid but funny. I couldn't help laugh at him. I just told him not to do it again [period]. Thinking back, he got lucky for a lot of things. He also told me something about the kid staying with us, her background. Now I know. And now I realize some things.

He didn't go home yet when we returned from our brief errand. He played COD Ghost on PS4 for a bit and then left. I went to work.

I posted my fanfiction today too. Thursday evening is just straight up writing and more writing.

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One thing that stood out today is when I just wanted to say hello to my one and only one. You know, the girl that I love. I went to say hello through Viber and I noticed something odd from her reply. The sticker had a tear on her. First, I apologized if she missed me, because we didn't talk yesterday. I quickly asked what was wrong. She said that she just had an argument with someone in the office. I tried to explain some things why it happened and said some things to comfort her. It was almost time to go, but I didn't want to leave her yet not knowing what she really feels, so I asked if I could call her. Truth is I just wanted to call her without asking, but I still asked. I just wanted to hear her voice. She really was sobbing, but she said that she's somewhat of a crybaby. I told her, I also cry easily. I think it's better to cry than keeping all that anger bottled up. I stayed in my room and continued casually talking to her, until she was feeling better. She said that her friend, who's also my classmate, is going to meet up with her tonight.

I cry easily too. Just praying intensely will make me cry. Just admitting that I have my own share of difficult times in life will make me cry. I cry tears of joy as well. There's no question about it. The bottom line is, I'm still happy with what I have. But I'm not happy with my work schedule. It's the only thorn in my life right now. My work schedule is my one and only concern in life. You know, if it's such a thorn, you might be wondering why I haven't quit yet. I can't quit, because I need money. Simple as that. Narrowing it down, my Saturday shift is the only thing that I hate. Yes, my Saturday. I can't feel my Saturday anymore and Fridays are no longer fun. But all of that is going to change. Soon.

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Tuesday. Went to work. It's a rare straightforward office shift today. I went home without any hassle. I left the office past 10pm. I tried resuming my literature again, but I ended up with a draft. A draft is a draft. It's better than nothing.

Speaking of leaving the office without a hassle, I found it real hard to leave the bed today. It's the sign of summer. Every summer, my body gets lethargic when I wake up. Also, the sun rises so early too and sets too late. It rises at 5:45am and goes down after 10pm. Downtown is still bright when I leave our building and there's still a crowd of people walking.

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It's an easy Monday. I had a chat in the morning with my beloved. I went to work in the afternoon and resumed my literature. Mom remarked on the captain Edward Kenway that I bought. I just laughed and explain. It's a decoration and nothing like an idol or whatsoever. Never it entered in my mind that he's like my idol. No. The collector's item was on sale and I wanted to buy it, because I hardly have any collector's items. And I call myself a gamer? Anyway, I also went ahead to talk to my special girl on Viber. Fun times really.

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Happy Mother's Day everyone.

I woke up early, because I slept early. I was super tired yesterday, and it wasn't a good Saturday for me. But it's all good now. Let's move on to today's Happy Mother's Day.

The message isn't for the mothers, I noticed. It's about the Exodus of the Israelites from Egypt, about how God rescued His people from enslavement. Afterwards the Pastor prayed for the mothers, there was some photo ops and the husbands gave a rose to their beloved wife. There was pot luck too. I wanted to treat mom to a buffet after service, but I'm sure there'd be a lot of people in the buffet. Since we ate already, I didn't insist anymore.

Afternoon, my brother and sister-in-law visited and we took pictures. I gave my mom money and flowers. She can buy her book now. It's just a simple, but sweet Mother's day. You know, I love you, mom.

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I lost it in the morning. I certainly didn't wake up in the right side of the bed. Because that kid was shouting in the morning. I lost it and shouted and I got up. I was just super cranky in the morning. And I had to go to work. Ugh. Work started really slow. I tried, man. I tried to do my best. I had an issue with my supervisor. I don't really like him. I thought I did my best, but he thought otherwise. When is this day going to end, I asked myself? Fortunately, I don't know if I can call it as a consolation, it just affected one dimension of my work. I sighed and went back to work. I met a new friend today. We left the office at 5:30pm. It's Mother's Day tomorrow and it's my godson's birthday today. I was super tired when I got home. I had to withdraw some money for my mom, but I didn't go to my godson's birthday. I went home and just went to sleep.

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I woke up early today. Played a bit of COD Ghost in the morning and off I went to the mall to do some errands. And by errands, I meant shopping. The day was really beautiful. It wasn't too cool and the breeze was just uplifting. I thought that life was easy, again. It's pretty rare for me to have that feeling. It's just the day off talking. But it's working.

When I came home, I bought the Assassin's Creed IV Black Flag Limited Edition and the PS Vita Borderlands 2 bundle. In the bus, I asked myself: I thought we were saving?

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Early in the morning.
A much needed day off. A PC game in the morning and a chat with that girl that claimed my heart. I'll multi-task for you. Come in the afternoon, I went for a nap. And I decided to work on my literature in the evening. It's a good Thursday.

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Our chat carried over to Wednesday early morning until 3am. Fun times indeed. We talked about different things. Really random; it ranged from happiness to music, to jargons like peg and push mo yan 'teh -- and even nail art. Don't ask how. I went to sleep at 3am.

I woke up lethargic again, but I gained momentum when I jumped off the bed. I hurried to catch my ride today. I turned in a remark to my supervisor for the employee committee rep. They should allow Fridays as a weekend shift for someone who has worked more than 5 years in the firm.

Work went over 10pm tonight. I was caught up until 10:20pm. I called my dad and said that I had overtime. He sent me a text message about where I am. I said that I was already at the bus. I called him initially because I wanted to buy something to eat before going home. It was late, and I was tired. He sent me a text message that I should get off at the Shell gas station. We met there. Afterwards, we drove to pick up mom.

We passed by Walmart first to buy milk. We bought more than milk, that's for sure. I shake my head why I had to walk over to the Walmart electronics, because I found out two expensive items that I want to buy. Now I'm doing the math in my head whether I'm able to buy them or not. I'm really stubborn and I guess I'll be losing sleep thinking about them. Collector's items and this is where my obsession kicks in. I don't know, because just like I regret not having that Animal Crossing 3DSXL limited edition, I don't want to regret missing that Assassin's Creed IV Black Flag Collector's Edition too for the PS4. And the new PS Vita model is now available too.

If I buy them... that would set me back for my June spending. I'm planning to spend a lot on June. I'm saving oh so dearly right now. Saving on gifts as well. For, you know...

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I had another good chat in the morning. I don't know why I woke up tired today. On my way to work, I felt lethargic. But it helped me calm down. I'm usually tense when I enter the office. Work was super okay. I'm very happy that they didn't want me to pay for the Saturday I missed. I mean... really? I felt super today. Despite that two people ruined my shift, it was still good. It was a straightforward Tuesday. Come evening, I pulled up my chat and continued our chat with my one and only, because it's a holiday where she is. I grabbed my laptop too so I could talk to her properly while chilling with my gaming rig.

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I played Starcraft 2 with my friend P early in the morning. He came home around 2am. I asked him if he was down with a Starcraft 2 game, he said that it's okay. We played 3 games and we won them all. Then I went to bed.

Monday morning, a good chat with my one and only muse.

What else did happen today? Ah yes, my dad. I didn't probe on asking what the outcome is of his email at work. But I overheard that the supervisors admit that dad isn't at fault why he's swamped with work. I just shake my head at their explanation, they're telling him that my dad's taking my his job too personal -- I mean-- really? Is that the best that they can come up with? Who in the first place dumped all that work on him? Them. It's because he's really valuable. They've never seen such work ethic from him, that's why they're dumping the work from, cause they know there'd be significant progress. Taking his job too personal, please. *shakes head* That's weak.

I treated him at a buffet tonight. Now I've learned that 7:30pm isn't a good time to eat buffet. But when you think about it, 7:30pm is a perfect time for dinner. That's because the buffet closes at 8:30pm and they stop cooking, as opposed to 9pm, my original thought of their place closing. I really thought it was 9pm. Otherwise, we could've gone somewhere else.

Still, I haven't updated my novel. Sighs.

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It's a day that I wouldn't also forget. A day marked on my calendar. It's a spiritual battle indeed. We went to church early, and I cleared my thoughts. There was a meeting afterwards. To be honest, I didn't get much sleep last night, because of what happened. I am affected, because I could clearly feel the burden from my dad. I cried. He deserves to be blessed from his zeal, hardwork, and sacrifice, I prayed. I chatted with my beloved early in the morning and tried to ease my heart. I found resurgence in my body. Church was okay in the morning. The pastor's message turned something on in me. I've realized a lot of things too about the miracle that Ezekiel had witnessed. After the meeting, we went home at 2pm. I was super tired and passing out. My cousin sent me a text message asking if I was available. I just replied to him that I was going to go home and sleep. I wasn't supposed to do that, because it will wreck my sleep tonight. However, all I did was a power nap. I think I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that it was my cousin's birthday yesterday.

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It has been 123 days! Today is a day to remember, for me personally. I just discovered that my dad has a big problem at work. To sum it up, he's running too many responsibilities that he wants to resign. He's very tired, and and always at the forefront of doing most of the work that the engineers should be doing. He's not accredited as engineer here, but he's always been an engineer back in the Philippines. In order for him to be an engineer, he has to study and pass the exam here. But I've been told already, about 2 years ago that he's having a lot of difficulty managing so much with pay that doesn't suit on the amount of work that he does. I can't really make a comment or give him an advise, but all I could do is to pray for him. I've meditated and I took a day off from work, because I really didn't feel well today.

I cried in my room too. I mean, he's done so much sacrifice for us. He's sending money to his folks at home, he's helping two of my relatives study for post-secondary, he's providing for us, he left his grandeur job in the Philippines so we could find a good start here, he's serving the Lord, and he's an Elder in the church. No one is perfect, but I can't help but ask at his age, why do they give so much work to him? It's because of his work ethic. They rely on him and trust him. But I don't know why there's so much of this work-- like so much-- and it makes me wonder what the other people in the office are doing? It's ironic, because the one thing that my dad left in the Philippines is bringing work at home, but now that we're here in Canada, his routine of business is back.

Additionally, I've prayed for my mom. I prayed that she'd find a lighter job for her age. She's also done her sacrifice for us. Take for example, leaving her work to take care of my older brother when he was little. She took care of me too when I was little, a full time homemaker. And she's left her VP position in the Philippines to pursue and hope for our good start in Canada. I have so much right now, and sometimes I shake my head at myself why I feel discontent. But today, I don't really care about myself, and I turn on to two of the most patient people that I know in my whole life, the best parents in the world, my mom and dad. It gave me a reason, to do better in life. And God knows what I've told Him. He knows my dreams. And He knows the answer what I've asked Him. May 3. I'll wait upon Him. I'll look on You. It's just a matter of time. God is our victory and He is here.

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Friday's wrecked. It's a day off, but I woke up at 6pm. I tried to salvage it by pure writing on my novel. I've finished two chapters and I'm going on a third chapter update. I'm getting down with a bad feeling. Yep. I'm under the weather again. Just when we've reached approximately 1/3rd of the 365 project, I wreck my Friday.

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It's May 1st! We're onto the 2nd quarter of the year already. And it's Thursday, but I thought I could be super productive today. I thought wrong. It was a super straightforward Thursday. I did a fanfiction update and played a long session of Civilization 5. I start to think that I can't play an hour of Civ 5, an hour is not enough. I also didn't think that I'd get super hooked with Civ 5. I also got to study my phone even further. I know 80% of it now.

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