Oh wow. It's still raining. Ordered breakfast in the morning and we're keeping it easy. What else is there to say? I'm just going to keep it short. It's still break time. So that's it. Peace!

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It's Sunday morning and we drove to St. Malo to attend church service. We decided to head over there since it's Sunday and it was on the way. Our church Bible camp is there and surprisingly the weather's improved over that patch of land. Around that area, the weather network forecasts a range of 90mm-120mm of rain. Again, on that patch of land there's only 20mm of rain on their forecast and the sky was considerably clear while we were driving there. They're prayer warriors indeed.

When it was time for testimonies, I've shared with the whole congregation about my two dreams. In my own interpretation, one dream is about God's favour and the other is apparently a foresight to my coming home. In my first dream, a messenger sends word to me that my castles were under attack. Yes, castles. In fact, I remember asking him which castle was under attack since he mentioned castle(s). He showed me to this chamber, where I followed him to this table where a map was laid out. There were 7 castles, and apparently they were all mine. And then he pointed which castle was under attack. In my interpretation this was about God's favour in my life and in each castle represents an aspect of my life; each castle represents God's favour to each aspect of my life. Perhaps I have God's favour on my studies, on my work, on my social life, on material blessings, on the usage of His gifts -- things as such. It means that one castle is under attack because of sin. I've had this dream, because I did something wrong -- at least this is what I remember.

Even if this dream didn't occur right after I did that mistake, sin can block God's blessings from us. I guess this dream was a warning and I admit that I have shortcomings, that I make mistakes, and that I have weaknesses. But it should be natural to live a righteous life as a Christian. Simply put, I should live a life away from sin no matter how much of a human being I am. To everything we see, hear, and consume in this world we have to test the spirit behind it, because these things that we see, hear and consume might be the things that could potentially remove God's favour from us. Fret not. "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." - John 1:9.

The second dream was a bit scary. In my dream, I was called for a Bible study in my mother's hometown. And in that Bible study, I'm surprised that I was called to exhort instead of my mom or my dad. And so I tried to exhort and I saw that the people were feeling the Holy Spirit. In the middle of what I thought to be the intense presence of the Holy Spirit, because the people started to shout the name of Jesus Christ, a human sized burning statue (a rebulto) walks up to the stage. I woke up. I tried to brush it off and go back to sleep. Lo and behold, it was the same dream again. I was in a Bible study and I was asked to exhort and then everyone started to feel the Holy Spirit and I started to challenge people as well to accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour and then a human sized burning statue appears and walks up to the stage. I started rebuking it. One woman came up to me and asked me why I was rebuking it, because for her it was supposed to be a sign of miracle. No! Not a burning statue! Not a walking rebulto that is burning! It wasn't a sign of a miracle at all! This was an act of disruption and I told the woman that you don't need a statue at all to be saved! All you need is your faith in Jesus Christ! I told them over and over that you don't need a rebulto! "Hindi niyo kailangan ang rebulto!" Again and again I shouted. And then I woke up. I've seen the same dream twice. It means something, doesn't it? After I woke up, a story in the Bible appeared in my mind. Like a flashbulb lit in my head with the picture of it. I was reminded of this story the second I woke up. You can find the story simplified by Dr. Luke on Luke 8:45.

The story is about that sick woman who touched Jesus on the hem of his garment and she was healed. In the book of Luke, he did not mention that the woman was bleeding for twelve years, (as mentioned in the book of Matthew) however Dr. Luke wrote that this woman was indeed sick. In general, she was in dire need; essentially she had a problem and Dr. Luke need not to elaborate what that problem is. She had this serious problem and that she was willing to put her faith in Jesus Christ, that she wanted to do something to get his problem solved-- that she wanted to get healed. Perhaps she was desperate? Perhaps she knew Jesus Christ even before. But her act to grab that opportunity, her action to seize that moment so that she can experience peace and comfort from her dire need, the fact that she wanted to be healed by Jesus, her faith in Jesus alone has her healed. So... do you need a rebulto, a statue or any paraphernalia to be saved -- or to be healed? No! It's true that you need the Bible, but the Bible is the Word of God and it's for one's personal reference as to what God's good news is. Merely owning a Bible will not save a person. Confessing your sins and accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and personal Saviour will save you from eternal death. "Hindi niyo kailangan ang rebulto!" I remember my dream. Your faith in Jesus will heal you.

"Then the woman, seeing that she could not go unnoticed, came trembling and fell at His feet. In the presence of all the people, she told why she had touched Him and how she had been instantly healed. Then He said to her, 'Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.'" - Luke 8:47-48

I believe a lot of us experience hardships in our lives that we would be willing to try anything so we can alleviate the reality called 'burden'. If you're willing to try anything, try Jesus Christ first. I'm sure that He won't fail you. I've been through a lot of depression and I've had dangerous thoughts before. I get tired and exhausted too, and there are times that I get confused in life. But now I understand that I'm engaged in a spiritual battle. The enemy is working double time to deceive me telling me that keeping the flesh utmost pleased and amused is most important.

Call them drugs, call it lust for the flesh, call it greed for money, call it thrill seeking in this world, putting your faith on these things would destroy the person itself. I have money, I have a lot of resources in my disposal, I lived my life however I want playing videogames and sleeping late and doing silly stuff. The truth is my life is easy that I could forget God. But even with all my leisure and luxury, I'm not happy. I can't see myself putting my faith on material or on flesh. The enemy is here to sever the believers from the love of God. Although, if we're aware how the enemy acts, we would know how to combat it. Combat through prayer, Bible study and... faith in God. Faith in God, I say; why am I not surprised? Just as human beings we breathe, our spirit lives through prayer and eats through reading the Word of God. My life is definitely better. Did my troubles cease to exist? Certainly not. But it's certainly more comforting knowing that God has my back. Furthermore, I can pray and tell Him all that nasty stuff happening to me. I can reach out to the hem of His garment and seek that healing I'm looking for.

And thus when God solved my problems, I just did what the woman in Luke 8:45-48 did, I trembled. I trembled for different reasons. I trembled with fear because I realized how powerful God is. I trembled because I am so thankful. I trembled perhaps I was in disbelief that I was really healed (that it was too good to be true), but indeed I trembled because it's the truth that I am finally healed. I trembled because I feel that God has taken care of me and is taking care of me. Such comfort makes my knees shake in bliss. I am unworthy of such love and grace that I fell on my feet.

The surprise from this revelation does not end there. Conveniently placed after this story in the book of Luke, guess who's starring in it? Jairus. I'm surprised too. I even asked my mom and dad what can be found on Luke 8:49. I just chuckled that they forgot. So let me get this straight: the story that popped up in my mind was conveniently placed above the story of the man that inspired my mom and dad to give me his name, Jairus. I'm loving this turn of 'coincidence'.

I like it. In summary, the story of Jairus is about Jesus's miracle of resurrecting Jairus's dead daughter. Jesus remarked that she was just asleep. But she was dead indeed as the people were wailing. It's funny how fast they went from wailing to laughing at Jesus when He said that the girl was just sleeping. They chose to be skeptical instead of being relieved. Sounds familiar? Sometimes people would cling to the grim news instead of being hopeful.

"But he took her by the hand and said, "My child, get up!" Her spirit returned, and at once she stood up. Then Jesus told them to give her something to eat. Her parents were astonished, but He ordered them not to tell anyone what had happened." - Luke 8:54-56

Yep, her spirit returned. She was dead alright.

What's the significance of Jairus' daughter? Well, for one thing, Jairus loves his daughter. I think his daughter is his precious creation. And he cried for help so that his precious creation can be saved. As a father you would sacrifice your body, you would work for your children, you would give your best for your children because they're your precious creation. Similarly, Jairus would've given his best effort to take care of his greatest creation, his daughter. What's your best creation? Your best creation may be the fruit of your labour, your craft, the work that you value, the result of whatever you're doing whether you like it or not. But that creation has a limit. In Jairus's story, his precious creation died. To say that it's a very serious problem is an understatement. But guess what? Jesus revived her. So I leave you this question. If there's a problem that you can't handle, say a problem with your livelihood, your school, your family or anything that you'd hold important, who would you rather turn to?

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Today's the start of what I call the first of the three breaks. My trip starts today too. I called my cousin first and we planned to eat breakfast first. It turns out that his whole family is with him and they're supposed to go to the supermarket first -- before everything. And so we did. After we dropped them off in the supermarket, we randomly picked some place to eat breakfast. Lo and behold, it's another Mcdonald's. Great. After breakfast, it started to rain on our drive. This trip is looking bright. It was raining hard. Anyway, I bought souvenirs today. I bought water dancing speakers. It's those self contained speakers that shoots jets of water inside its clear container as if dancing to the music. I also bought a limited edition of Watch Dogs for the PC. Some souvenirs, huh?

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BREAK TIME!! I'm just going to enjoy today. I'm expecting my credit card to arrive tomorrow. Not going to write a lot. Eat. Sleep. Play. Write. Draw. See you later.

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Still feeling frustrated and dazed about what happened last night, I woke up in the afternoon to carry out my last shift before my week break. I confessed to God that I wasn't in any condition to be 100%. But I had no choice, I just have to endure today. I want to go home as soon as I stepped out of the door. But I want to finish today's work properly so I can break without any worry. Today was actually a mystery. Here it goes.

When I arrived in the office, I've seen people just idly chatting with each other. When I asked what happened, I discovered that the server had crashed. When a server crashes, people can't do their work, so they idle. Basically, we get paid without doing anything. The server crashed early in the afternoon, and so I didn't do anything until 6:15pm.

Work officially started after 6:15pm. The server briefly crashed again at 7pm. But after a minute, we went back to work. So there had been three crashes today. Come 8pm, the server crashed-- again. I took my 15 minute break. After I got back, the server was still not working. Since there had been 4 crashes which is highly unusual and that the office isn't productive, we went home early. A crash in a day is a problem. Two crashes means something seriously wrong is happening. But we've had 4 crashes in a day. They sent us home, but no one was complaining-- well, except for a few supervisors. I only worked for an hour today.

There was a crash yesterday afternoon, but there were no problems later on. Taking note of what happened last night and my current condition, I consider what happened today a relief, a blessing, and a mystery.

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Today's the last day of my friend at work. I made sure to talk to him a lot, but we're already friends in Facebook. When I got home, Pastor Rommel and Pastor Mae was at home talking to my dad. They were discussing the schedule for the church retreat this weekend. They remarked how late I get home. They know my circumstances.

When my dad told me about going to the retreat on Saturday, I snapped because I've had plans already. Originally, my mom and dad said that we're not going to the retreat. But they just changed their minds now. I was seriously angry, because I've already decided what to do on Saturday. I wanted to take a break. So bad. I wanted to take a break at everything. It's a break that I wanted so bad, and it felt like they're taking it away from me -- just like that. I just got really frustrated at what was happening.

My eyes are blood shot right now. My emotion is overflowing. I can't think straight and I just want to get my last shift finished, so I can go on my break. I'm so eager. I'm so tired of work and other responsibilities that my nerves are wearing thin. I've been patient for a long time. For a long time. I've been waiting. I'm weary. My heart and my mind wants to go away. I want to do stuff this summer. I think it's okay, because God knows what's happening to my life.

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It's raining! Still, I can feel my break! I just need to get over the last two shifts of Tuesday and Wednesday and it'll be a week's worth of vacation! My second crate from Lootcrate arrived today. While on my way to the kitchen, thankfully I remembered it and opened the front door. They placed it just by the side of the front door. The box didn't get wet at all, because the rain ceased in the morning.

My sister's friends dropped by in the afternoon, because they have a practice for the cotilion. Since it was raining, they practiced in the garage. I told them to leave me some of their food, because the last time they came and that we had prepared food for them, I didn't get to eat anything. I get hungry too!

Their dance is still a mess, but it's coming along.

I also applied for my TD Credit Card online today. They said it would come within 2-3 business days. It's great that I've been approved a higher spending limit than I expected. Here comes the debts!

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It's a bit funny today, because I was supposed to visit the Foursquare church today along with my ate C and my sister. But my ate C said that someone had called in sick and that she had to pick up that shift instead. A coincidence? I wanted to visit so I could take a picture of our church. The Winnipeg Foursquare now has its own building, and I wanted to take a picture of it. Our current church, the Winnipeg Christian Family Ministry, also has its own building now, but there's still a lot of work to do. As of now, they're building the stage; yes, that kind of work. This is the only thing that stood out today. The timing is just perfect why my visit had to be canceled. I told my ate C why she's picking up the shift and that there could be someone else to pick up the slack. I mean, she already worked from 11:45pm to 7am, and now she's going to work until 12pm? That's super exhausting.

There's not really an issue for me if I wanted to visit the Foursquare church. This is the church that we originally came from before we transferred to the WCFM. It's kind of a family issue between my mom and dad, but we left with proper ties to each other. Until now, I keep my contact with the folks there. And they didn't have a drummer in WCFM as it's also a starting church, so I have a reason to serve there too. Now that the Foursquare is growing and now that they have their own building, I just thought of dropping by. But still I think why someone had to call in sick and cancel our visit. My mom and dad were supposed to go to church today, but they were exhausted from yesterday. I was exhausted from my back-to-back shifts and so I took it easy this Sunday.

We've started printing the invitations for my sister's debut today. It was frustrating at first, because we're printing on both sides of the card stock. And the printer's not properly printing to make them align on both sides! The motif is supposed to resemble a passport. The outer covers aren't aligned with the inner content. So we had to cut the borders and make the invitations smaller than the original size. But fortunately, I was able to fix the problem later on. I learned as I went. Stupid printer. We processed about 37 invitations. 100 people are sure to come, and there's still more than that. About 200 people were listed. And of course we ran out of ink too. To be continued.

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I want to finish Saturday right! To be honest, I was fighting myself not to do anything rash today. I just want to keep it simple and right. So let's do it right and finish right!

10:30am- the church members are at home discussing something about an issue. I told my dad that I could stay and join the discussion as well, but he said I should go to work.
10:51am- arrived in the office.
11am- hajime!
11:06am- feels like a trainee. Let's keep it basic, ayt?
11:16am- our server crashed.
11:31am- we're back. That was fast. I can still see other people idling though.
12pm- It's slow. My body's heavy. There's still 6 hours left?!
1pm- I'm crashing instead. But I'm still on course!
2pm- I want to sleep yo!
2:30pm- washroom break. I still need to pick up myself.
3pm- I'm passing out. I need a jolt.
3:41pm- washroom break again. Told myself that I'm just 2 hours away from freedom!
4pm- Break for 15 minutes.
4:37pm- Took my break for 30 whilst chatting with my friend.
5:05pm- Back to work for the last hour!
5:30pm- 30 minutes to freedom!
6pm- WOO! *SINGS HAPPY SONG*! I missed the early bus though. I went to the cafe instead.
6:10pm- My cousin called and said that they're having a celebration at Golden Terrace.
6:32pm- I wen to Golden Terrace and ate. It's past my fasting so it's fine. It was a bit hot when I got off the bus and that I had to walk there. When it rains here, it's cold, and I thought it was going to rain today; I was wearing a sweater too. No matter, the restaurant's cool.
Onwards to 9:30pm- I stuffed myself there! I'm full. I went home at 9:30pm. That's when it started raining. Only that time!

With my break approved, I'll enjoy these two days off and then finish my last pair of shifts specified next week. I can't wait!

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It's that Friday I've been waiting for. I just need to get it over with. So okay. Let's get it on.

Lootcrate arrived today. That was fast. This month's theme is Transform. But I didn't want to open it just yet. I want to open it on my days off.

I had this heavy feeling going to work. I know it's going to be another late night for me and a Saturday morning shift is waiting for me as well. Let the grinding hurdle begin. I wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't for my epic fail Saturday last week. It felt so lonely, I wanted to quit! lol.

Here's my timeline. I was so bored anyway.

3:42pm - Arrived at work.
4pm - BOLD. My equipment's not working properly.
5:54pm - I am so getting impatient.
6pm - I went to the washroom to take a breather. I looked at myself on the mirror. Eminem's Lose Yourself is playing in my head.
7pm - My hands are tired after 3 hours from all the typing... 4 more. Washroom again.
7:30pm - I'm getting tired a bit.
7:45pm - Yay. Almost there.
8pm - 3 more hours. My hands hurt.
8:30pm - Saw a job post about coding. Might want to check that out.
8:45pm - Took my 15 minute break.
9pm - Switched. OMG! TELUS!
9:30pm - 30 minute breaktime. + 1 more hour. I can feel the respite. But I know that I still have a lot of things to do before I get there. It's pleasant to find my old supervisor lingering in the kitchen. I don't know if I'll change my job or apply from that email I received. You can see that I'm really struggling here and that I need a break.
10pm- Interrupted. My head hurts. Almost there.
10:53pm - finally! Going home! My head hurts.
11:40pm - I've had my dinner. I need to go to sleep. I have a headache and I don't want this bad feeling to develop further.

Onwards to Saturday!

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Like I expected, I tried to do all sorts of stuff today just to alleviate the stress. It's a day off, and I'm spending it however I want. I don't think I've done the right things though. *laughs*

... and then Thursday is gone!

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My muscles were hurting early morning. I cried. I cried because of the irony. Rather than crying from the pain, I cried because I felt alive. It's ironic because I thought back how I was able to surpass the exhaustion, the emotional breakdown, all the hurt, and be able to make it this far. I've been rather patient in life. I really am patient in life, because I understand it better now. I've been taught how to sacrifice time, money and energy. I cried because I made it far. And I'm excited what would happen to me after I graduate. It was time for me to pray. And admit of my shortcomings and my weaknesses.

I slept around 5am. The sun was already up. This is what's hard about the summer here. My sleep was fine, but I felt tired afterwards. This is a grinding week indeed. I was pushing the pen for an hour and did all sorts of different work in the office. The stress was building up that I can't wait for tomorrow's day off. It's that off that I needed to proceed on my Friday plus Saturday. I'm going to have to win two boss battles to get to my vacation. I'll reach it!

I went home craving for donuts. It's because I saw a box of Robin's from work. It's exclusively for someone else. So I thought I'd just buy my own food when I get home. Upon going home, I hitched a ride with my dad to pick up my mom. I told him that we're eating out wherever they want. Since it's still Wednesday, it was still an ordinary day for them, so it wasn't special. After picking up mom, we drove to Tim's and McDs. A&W joint was closed already; they close at 11pm. I got home and forgot the stress. It's food therapy. And a day off ahead.

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Woke up at 6am to get a drink. I browsed the web and tried to go back to sleep. I went to work in the afternoon, but I honestly felt that my body was heavy. My first string of the three breaks has been approved! I'm getting two Saturdays off!

It felt like a grind today, because the office is really busy right now. This week will be a grind. I'm going to have to endure this week and get over every hardship to get to my break! How typical, yes? Anyway, I have something to look forward this week.

I went home past 10pm. I've discovered the potential issues at church. I honestly felt tired today.

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I received an email from Lootcrate today. I'm surprised that they've started shipping my crates. It's not even the 20th yet, but I'm not complaining! Wee! This month's theme is Transform! My crates are on its way.

I also couldn't sleep properly. So I watched Eden's Bowy. All I could say is that the settings of the anime is not so good. It's confusing -- a mesh of culture. More like a mess of culture. I'm not a fan of the costumes. Although I like the main character's hair design. The plot is also contradictory. All this god and godkiller idea isn't working on me.

At 9am, I opened my email and HR said that the voicemail was down this past Saturday. The HR received my email and replaced my shift on my specified date. For two days I've been uneasy for nothing! See, I really shouldn't worry about anything at all at work. I can't seem to nail it on my head that work is not my first priority. Nail it on your head! Work (your performance at work in general) is not your first priority! True enough, I'm not there to compete. I'm there to earn money.

They'll be placing a Friday shift this week. This means another loaded week. What's new? You know what, I just forgot working on those invitations and the Powerpoint for my sis' debut! That's great! And guess what? I'll be missing the Red River Ex THIS YEAR too! Awesome! I've missed it for 4 years!

I've made little progress on my literature as well. This is turning into a great week.

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Happy Father's day!

I woke up at 9am. It's a spiritual battle indeed as I tried to overcome my slump. I knew that Saturday was ruined and I was unsure how HR would respond to my absence. Quite frankly, I don't want to get in trouble, but I don't really care. I felt like crap in the morning, yes, I did. And today's a very nice day for the dads. It was raining though. But I didn't care too, since I love the rain. I went to church to shake off this slump and to refresh my soul.

Service ended at 2pm. And mom and dad wanted to stay first. There's an issue -- apparently. I stayed behind with them, because I wanted to be with my dad for today. We left at 2:30pm. I still wanted to clean my room. I needed an hour at least to clean up my room, because we were expecting guests this 3pm afternoon. With less than 30 minutes in the clock, upon stepping inside, I rushed to pull the bed sheet, grab the vacuum cleaner and find a damp towel.

Well, how should I put it? The guests arrived at 5pm. They said 3pm. Arriving at 5pm is not even Filipino time.

Lots of folks at home.

On the flipside, I told my special girl to tell her dad a Happy Father's day. I asked her if her dad has a Facebook account. She said her dad doesn't have one. *sad face* I was also telling her that she should greet my dad a Happy Father's day via Facebook PM. I just put my hand on my forehead when she said that she's shy. There's really no reason to be shy. I mean, I'm already telling her.

Come evening, I went to the bank to withdraw money. Then we passed by McD's for some coffee. It was still raining, mind you. On our way there, I saw a man standing by the door with a coat and his hands folded. I asked him if he was okay, and he said he's fine. I thought to myself, okay then. I went inside and grabbed three cups of coffee for free. And then I asked him again if he was cold or something-- he said he was fine. So I went ahead inside the SUV and drove home.

The whole point of today's visit was a Happy Father's day barbecue, but since it's raining, the plan didn't work 100%. Guests left around 9pm~ish. And sadly, there was no barbecue left for me.

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I woke up in the middle of the night again. I felt sick afterwards and I couldn't go back to sleep. This is it. This is that stupid feeling. I shake my head again that this is happening. I can't go back to sleep! I have work this morning! I just laughed in my disbelief. It was such a difficult feeling and I'm just not in any way or condition in doing anything. No, it's not anything I ate yesterday. It's just inside me.

I called in sick, but the voicemail was broken. This is the first time. I sent an email to the HR instead. But it still felt me uneasy. Never emailed-in-sick before. And you know what's the frustrating part is? I slept throughout the day! I woke up at 7pm. I didn't eat anything. Nothing. I woke up on an empty stomach. It was hypersomnia. I get hypersomnia in the late spring and early summer. I almost forgot, I started watching this old anime called Eden's Bowy. Fortunately enough as I write back on this day, I remember that I was able to sleep Saturday night.

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I woke up early morning at 3am. Feeling like there's no turning back to sleep, I got up and opened my laptop instead. I had breakfast and wanted to start my day off early. I put my laptop beside me while having breakfast and we 'resumed' our chat, my chat with that special girl, while she was working overtime *laughs*. She said that she'd be there until 8pm, and so I bugged her until she'd be coming home. I didn't want to leave her and I wasn't doing anything in particular except for relaxing. I decided to have Starbucks at 6am.

When she went home, she was tired and so we had to log out. I played and went back to take a nap at 10am. This is how lethargic I am every morning that it's unbearable. I woke up at 3pm to laze around. I played Mount and Blade-- again. I cooked dinner at 6pm, and just realized that I haven't had lunch either. Come at night, I accompanied my sister chat with some folks back home. It's Friday night. I've had panini for dinner as well. I slept in tonight anticipating a full Saturday tomorrow.

I haven't touched any of the Powerpoint or invitation things for my sister's debut yet. I decided to be responsible tomorrow instead.

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I started chatting with my folks back at home now, because of that next month thing. Also it's typical that they'd be discussing the 'balik-bayan' box. Ate R wants a tablet instead. Sosi. I tried rewriting on my novels again. There's no webdesign session today and then I checked out the code that my cousin found. I just played Mount and Blade all day, the whole day. It's a Thursday day off. My dad called in the evening asking what's the ulam and I told him that there's none. I should've brought the fried rice and the crispy chicken when I had the chance. When he went home, he asked me to cook my special fried rice. I was too lazy to do anything. So no. It was very quiet tonight. I missed this peace and quiet, I tell you. I slept in early. Oh yeah, her friend and I also had a chat today. It's about all sorts of stuff about my favourite girl. I don't know why, but I feel like they're more excited than I am. I am excited, but-- everybody, just calm down.

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It was 2am and I wanted to talk to my folks in the Philippines. It's good to see my grandfather looking good. And they also said that the rain season has begun. Rain in the Philippines tend to be troublesome rather than being an ordinary weather. Hopefully nothing bothersome would happen this year in my original hometown. After talking to them quite a bit about some things, I told them that with them again tomorrow, their afternoon. I slept afterwards around 3pm.

A straightforward but lanky Wednesday followed after. It was really slow at work today. I'm glad that I got over it. I'm really looking forward to this week, because my Friday is off again. So I get more days off than the usual. I also passed my vacation form to HR. I'm just waiting for it to get approved. I only need one week first. I get three weeks off.

When I got home, I wanted to relax first before going online. Then I was off to chat with my folks again in the Philippines. It's a holiday there now, as they're celebrating the Philippine Independence Day. It's not raining there. Anyway the planning stage has commenced.

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Tuesday. I felt like I got a good sleep, but I still felt tired when I woke up. I'm excited that Friday is payday. When I got to work, I headed straight to the HR office to hand in my vacation form. I gave it to her assistant instead and I made my way to the washroom afterwards. I hope there's no problems about it. It's just a simple week off, and it's the first of my three strings of break.

Work was sorta' straightforward at the first three hours. I was struggling a bit tonight too. It was the Roadside project again. After the three hours, it took a nose dive and I found myself itching to go home. I mean, after my break at 8:30pm, the last hour felt like an eternity. I really just lost my motivation, especially during my last 30 minutes. I badly wanted to go home. It didn't feel good knowing that I'll be back tomorrow.

I went home past 10pm. Fortunately, I made it past 10pm. I got home, ate dinner and chatted with my favourite girl in the world just to recharge.

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I can't really say if anything important happened this Monday. It's that boring I guess. I should've went for a jog this morning too, but I woke up late. I tried rewriting some of my entries in my novel. I plan to do start Powerpoint and the invitation to my sister's debut this week since it will be a lighter week compared to last week.

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I thought I could sleep straight, because I tired last night. I slept in early, but it turned out that it looked more like a long nap. I woke up at 3am and tried to do random things on the computer and upstairs to get myself back to sleep. It's mostly writing and unboxing my new PSVita slim. Sleep invited me back at 5am. But since we have church today, I got up at 9am. We got ready and went to church. We made it there just past 10am and it was still early. Praise and Worship was loud. I don't particularly like loud drumbeats, and I better handling. I checked my drumsticks and they're still okay. But the lineup was supposed to be loud, so I guess it's all good. The message was about the list of 8 items to check for regarding salvation. We went home at 1pm and I was really passing out. I couldn't open my eyes wide, and my mind was a blur. This is due from my on and off sleep previously.

After making it home, I napped. It was alone at home, because mom and dad had to stay behind for another meeting. My sister was out volunteering for some kids program. My cousin K kept calling my cellphone, I didn't answer. I just wanted to sleep after the loaded week. I'm so glad that I made it on my bed that afternoon. My mind wasn't functioning in full capacity anyway, and I didn't care. It's my freetime now. I woke up at 7pm and finally I asked why my cousin K was calling. I remembered that today's my tita J's birthday! I called my cousin up for them to pick me up instead. After making it to the front seat, I asked him if he wanted Tim Horton's. I thought we could have iced cap first before going to the party. I brought a dozen donuts too. We had to go to another Tim's because the iced cap machine of the first one was broken. It's funny how we're still unfamiliar with all the Tim establishments here in Winnipeg. We actually had to consult the web; if you really live here, you should know where all the Tims are.

7:45pm and we finally arrived at my aunt's. There were only a few people. It's an exclusive party. We also watched the NBA finals that time, game 2. Heat won. Then I coached my cousin M how to play Quizup. He won most of his rounds. We went home at 10pm just after the NBA game. Then I was off to relax again. Speaking of relaxing, I was able to talk among my peers who's coming with us on our long drive. Itinerary will be drafted on the 28th. Or before that.

No more loaded week this week. It's time to design that summer vacation.

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Amazing turn of events. Simply amazing.

8:30am. Pondering what'll happen today. Groaning that it's Saturday. I just need to get over this day and be able to sleep tonight.
8:47am. I'm getting tempted to call in sick. I'm itching. I can still call in sick! But I didn't. And it hurt.
9am. Dad said that he'll leave at 9:30am because of church practice! I was so surprised and it means that a free hour would be gone! I still didn't want to get up. I won't be able to use his ride. This means that I have to get up now and catch the 10am bus! *groans hard*
9:58am. Found myself hurrying to catch the bus. Great start. I'm loving this feeling. Argh! It's so nice and sunny outside too!
10:09am. My body felt so heavy when I viewed the blue sky and the green trees from behind the bus's window. It was just a great Saturday to spend outside and I can't believe I'm going work for this!
10:36am. It's super quiet in the office. I'm anticipating a full shift. I'm still shaking my head. Too tired and emotionally drained today. Coming to work is the right thing today, I said to myself. I'm still wondering what will happen.
10:55am. I found 10 cents under my desk. The office finally comes to life too.
11:00am. They said it's a full shift! WOOHOO!! *sarcastic*
11:06am. Just like yesterday, the server crashed again.
11:30am. Nope the server is still crashed and we're just idling around.
11:45am. Server's fixed. Back to work.
1pm. Still slow. I'm passing out on. I overheard something about a 5pm or 5:30pm. Made me curious what'll happen that time.
1:40pm. 1/3 of my work is finished.
1:45pm. Same numbers.
2pm. 2/5 of my work is complete.
2:45pm. 3/5 of my work is finished. But the server crashed again!!
2:50pm. We went on break instead.
3:05pm. The supervisor said shouted we can go home! Everyone was anticipating it already. They finally gave up.
3:07pm. I called my cousin to check where they are for the photo shoot. I changed my mind.
3:22pm. I got on the bus on my way home. And that wraps up what I thought to be a tiring and exhausting and depressing Saturday!

I can't explain this event. For our server to crash two days in a row? I really don't know what happened, but it's obvious that I was able to catch a break today. I still did the right thing to do, and I didn't have to make up a silly excuse not to go to work today, and I still got paid for doing nothing most of the shift. Remember it for the books. In my long years in our firm, I've only experienced a handful of crashes there, but just in the past two days, there were 3 crashes? It's unusual. I got to enjoy the sunshine in this windy day afterwards. Oh, on a sidenote, the photos from my sister's debut photo shoot were nice. I opened my lootcrates today to check the content. Everything looks good. I can't wait for this month's crate.

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When I knew that it's Friday, I didn't want to leave my bed. This is what I'm talking about. This feeling. Become familiar with this feeling of not wanting to go to the office on a Friday, because when you start getting cynical again on a Friday off just remind yourself that working today sucks. Anyway, I woke up when my mom said that my package arrived. It's 2/12 or 1/6 of my lootcrate package. May's theme is adventure -- just for future reference.

I got up at 2:45pm and got ready for work. It was such a fine afternoon too. I'm never doing this again, working Fridays and Saturdays. In the future, I'll be working Friday as my weekend. I'll do the initiative. So I left home at 4:13pm. I arrived in the office at 4:50pm. I'm surprised to see my friend working today, because I thought he had changed his schedule already.

Around 5pm, I received a blessing in disguise. Apparently our server crashed. Today was the first time that the tech had to service the server for a long time. I was anticipating that fixing the server would take at 7pm. If our server is still broken at that time, the 4pm-ers would go home. Aha. Anyway, my friend and I were just chatting, because we can't do any work without our server. At 5:30pm, I was still skeptic that it would get fixed soon. I was anxious too.

At 6pm, only an hour left before they could send the 4pm-ers home, it was still broken. I went to the washroom. When I got back, there was no progress. But at 6:30pm, people groaned when the server was up again. Aha. I laughed. It took an hour and a half to fix it? That's one record for the books. My other friends said that the longest server crash they've had to wait was 3 hours. 3 hours! Wow. Anyway, time went by so fast, that I was surprised that my friend was already taking his break? It was already 8:11pm. Today was slow indeed, but whatever. I took my break at 8:38, went back at 9:05pm. Then it was just straight work from there trying to catch up and I left the office at 10pm. Just thinking of tomorrow is giving me a headache.

When I got home, there was no one but ate C. This means that her little girl is sleeping with us tonight. That means I'm going to wake up very early tomorrow, because of the crying and the TV and the shouting and stuff. Inhale. Exhale. I just got a haircut by the way. So I need to stop pulling my hair now.

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Thursday is as it is. Still waiting for my lootcrate package. It's going to come tomorrow, I think. I started helping my mom more than the usual out around the house while she's recovering. I just wanted to relax today. Fortunately, I'm ready for tomorrow. I also tried resuming on my ongoing novel. I noticed that updating my novels got harder, because I seemed to have forgotten how my stories would progress. Thus, it feels like I'm brainstorming, and writing towards the uncharted. This is going to be interesting.

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It's another straightforward Wednesday. I pulled a sheet of vacation with pay form from HR to make it official. Three weeks off here we come. I'm planning on splitting it up throughout the summer. Anyway, work was productive I guess and I went home past 10pm. I had dinner and I guess everything's settled now with any 'issues'. I don't want to comment anymore. After washing the dishes, I went downstairs to relax. There's nothing much that happened. I'm still waiting for my package and I'm surprised the expected delivery date is on June 10th. Wow. And that's my Wednesday.

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The flow of the work in the office was brutal. I changed my schedule and reverted it back. Finally. I've also confirmed that I have 3 weeks off worth of break since I've been with the firm for 5 years. Roadside Assistance project was hard, it's just I can say. Yesterday was the day they removed electronic privileges in the office too. If you don't understand what I'm saying, I don't too. It doesn't matter explaining it anyway. They said it'll just be for 2 weeks. I guess they're doing that so that the client won't be able to say anything else.

When I left the office some beggar was asking me for coins. I was taken aback when he had this styrofoam cup filled with toonie, I asked myself if this guy was for real? Why is he still asking for more and I told him that I was getting late for my ride. But he insisted I'd give him. I grabbed my pocket to get something, and I was hoping it was a loonie. It was a toonie. I was really getting late and I just gave it to the guy. But I was all too late anyway. I could've made a run for it if he hadn't showed up.

Anyway, when I got home I called my brother because I received a text message from him. I can't believe we had such a conversation. I don't want to talk about it here as it's a family issue. I feel frustrated as well. I mean, now that it's the summer break, I don't know if I'll be able to do what I want to do this summer break. Yesterday we were all fine. I just think that such an 'issue' right now is not really an issue. Not at all! I just think that things got blown out of proportion. It's just exaggerated. And I don't know how it became an issue. And my brother and sister-in-law had to be involved too? Why?! I mean why them? I'm shaking my head. I already have problems at work and now I have problems at home too? I won't allow this.

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It's Monday and I woke up at 11:30pm. It's just the second day of June and I'm excited. Although, I just stayed still this Monday. I played on the computer, since I'm too lazy to get out of the house today. It's also raining. It's the perfect weather to just get settled in. It was so gloomy outside that I couldn't help feel sleepy. I tried taking a nap and then I woke up at 7pm. Then I told dad to get dressed -- laughs -- because I was hungry for fastfood. I went to Walmart first to pick up an Animal Crossing New Leaf cartridge then we drove to A&W. I went home around 10:30pm. Get ready for a loaded week.

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I woke up at 8:30am this Sunday and got ready for church. My mom stayed behind, because she was still recovering. We arrived at church past 10am. Our Pastor taught the bible study today. Praise and Worship was okay. Though I thought that they could've decreased the times when they have to cut off the instruments or the drums. It didn't seem natural. Worship could have been more fluid and continuous. The service got really long today. We still have communion afterwards. After our service, I thought that we were done. There was a meeting for the elders and the deacons afterwards. So my dad had to stay behind with the car. I was passing out and I wanted to go. I just hitched a ride with my ate C. Before going home, my dad handed me tita L's invitation for my sister's debut. Even though her debut is still on October, the invitation has to be sent early, because my tita L lives in Japan.

Today is officially the start of June, everybody! We're wrapping up the first half of the year! Already?!

We drove to Shoppers first to drop the letter. On our way there, we noticed that it was hot outside. When it's winter, it's very cold. When it's summer -- it's not even the summer season yet -- it's very hot. After dropping the letter, we went home and I made some calls to my cousins. We were supposed to watch a movie today. I wanted to watch Godzilla, but I thought my sister was coming along so we checked the schedules on the new X-Men movie. Again, I thought she was coming; she said that she was going to babysit tonight, so we reverted back to Godzilla. All three of us going wanted to watch it.

After assigning our driver, cousin M, I went straight to my room and took a nap. Even though it's on and off, I needed that nap. I woke up at 5:45pm. While getting ready, I heard the doorbell. It's our chauffer. I told him that we'd meet at 6:30pm, the agreed time. He was early. We shouldn't be really early going to the cinema or else we'd be idling around while waiting for the screening. Anyway, we left the house and picked up our cousin K at 6:45pm. We had to wait for him, since he was still getting ready. We arrived at the cinema around 7:09pm. Lo and behold, I double checked the schedules and we paid a bit extra on our tickets, because our Godzilla will be screened on 3D. At first, I just wanted to watch it on 2D, because I expected that I'll be paying for their tickets. Apparently not. And I'm happy.

Cousin K bought the popcorns and the drinks, because he has the Cineplex card. I still don't. 7:30pm, and it was showtime. We kept commenting how the 3d glasses aren't working on the the commercials. At first, we thought the 3d aspect is going to be a rip-off. But no. When the movie itself rolled in on the screen, the 3d was amazing. I give my nod of approval. My cousin K always remarked how Godzilla looked like Barney. And he was big-- by big I meant fat. It's a good movie. You should watch it. It's obviously better than the 1998 Godzilla. Expect a straightforward ending.

I didn't want to recycle my 3d glasses, but I didn't need them anyway. So I just tossed it into the bin. Upon our exit, I told them that I was hungry, so we went to eat outside. We chose our usual Vietnamese restaurant. It was already 10pm, and we had to make a choice fast. But our usual place closes at 11pm. We knew that we were going to cut it close, but I was hungry. We waited and they brought our food at 10:30pm. So we had a half hour to eat?! And the bloody shrimps on our hot plate were just a handful!

When we finished, my cousins still asked me if we still had to go somewhere. I said Wal-Mart. But then cousin M said that it's Sunday and it's closed since 6pm. I thought they were 24-hours, except Sunday? So they're not 24-hours unlike 7-11. Oh well, it was already 11pm, and tomorrow's Monday. We decided to go home. When I got home, my dad put out his hand asking where was his share of the food.

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