It's my Thursday off. Tomorrow's going to be my last Friday shift before my two week break starts. I don't remember doing much today. It's just a day off and I just did whatever to catch up on things. I still haven't bought the dresses for my sister since I don't want my money to leave me yet. I guess it's another forgettable Thursday. I'm still waiting for my second Lootcrate of July. I checked my email and they said that I'm indeed working tomorrow despite the reduction of hours. I don't mind. I need the money.

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My girlfriend and I voice-chat instead because the video-chat wasn't working well. We talked about all sorts of stuff from gospel songs to balikbayan-boxes. All I wanted to do is get lost in our story-telling. We ultimately succeeded.

I woke up at 2:45pm today. I overslept due to this early morning's chat. I ate my brunch and got ready for Wednesday's work.

I'm still waiting for my second Lootcrate for July. I don't know what's happened to it, but it says that it's in transit and it has already reached a Candadapost processing facility. I'm just gonna wait some more, I guess.

Work today was over the top because I had to double my pace to make up for the past unusually unproductive two hours. I think I managed to wing my quota. I came home past 10pm and looking forward to tomorrow's writing day. I thought I would just use the day off for writing.

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Today was unreal. My afternoon played like a comedy sequence. I was certainly taken to the point that my life is out of control.

A home security salesman approached me and asked me about how long were we a Vivint customer. I told him that we're Vivint customers for 3 years, and that's when he introduced himself and stuff. I was running for work already, and that's when he noticed that I was on my way. I told him that he can come back in the evening, so he could talk to my dad instead. I didn't know if he did come back. I checked my phone for the time and went to walking to my stop.

When I got to the bus stop, I noticed that the bus may be running late. I looked at my phone and I dialed their machine to check the schedule. It was going to run late and that would mean I only have a few minutes left when I get to my stop near the office. I thought I could walk to another stop to catch some breathing space reaching downtown. The only catch is, that bus is always crowded and the stop was far too, but I think where I'm standing now, if I wait for it, I'll have 5 minutes left when I reach my destination; gonna do some cardio before going to work, huh?

I decided to make a move and head to that stop where the crowd is. While I was two blocks away from it, I saw my bus from the distance! Crap! I ran back to my old bus stop about 2 blocks away now. I don't know how, but one earbud from my earphone was gone. It's an in-ear earphone, so it feels like there's something sharp sticking inside your ear if I put it on. I like those earphones too! When I made it to the bus, and I thank God I did, I was panting and laughing at the bus driver. I showed him my pass and I just fell on my seat. No sense acting prim and proper now, I don't mind doing running for dear life when I reach my stop near the office.

Around Main Street, my eyes grew when the bus stopped over for these 50-some kids and their guardians waiting at the stop. OMG! They're going to fit all of them inside?! How?! The people inside the bus smirked and some moved at the back of the bus. I was already winded a bit, I'm running late, I avoided riding that crowded bus, and then I'm gonna end up barely breathing with this much people. We can't move! I started laughing in my head. I stared outside the window as I hoped for the best. It was loud inside the bus too and it seemed like the bus driver was still willing to pick up some passengers at the next stops! I remembered my prayer before going to work. I knew that the road construction near our street would somewhat hamper the buses, and I prayed that God help me get to work on time. And I made it on time -- even though them 50+ kids and their guardians were still there when I got off. I wondered where their field trip is. I did hurry to work afterwards.

Work was straightforward today too, that there's not much mentioning. I came home and went back to reading the super thick 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami on the bus. And all I can say is that I can't even compare my writing to him. His writing style would dwarf mine and I guess it's also a sin if I would even try to compare mine. I wish I could capture the essence, the setting, and the feel of a story that detailed in the future.

When I got home, my ate C asked for my adivse on an issue about my sister's cotillion. I told her that I would try to talk to the parties involved and give them two weeks to see what would happen. If not, then we'd have to find a replacement for someone. I also discovered that my sister's fall photoshoot was pushed back to 2 weeks, August 30. That means I have more time to keep my money. I do enjoy the company in my savings.

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My fill carried over to the early morning, because I can't sleep yet. That was what I meant by taking a nap yesterday afternoon, so I can chat with my beautiful girlfriend. I couldn't help but laugh when she shared to me that her dad thinks I don't feel erm... ordinary. Okay, she said that I don't give the feel of normal. 'kay, he thinks I'm not normal. So I guess, I'm abnormal. *laughs* He's right, I was normal once, it was the worst minute of my life. Normal isn't working for me. I'm wearing different hats after all, I'm a musician (I love music so much and I dance too), I write (fanfic, love stories, and journals), I draw (people and original characters), I'm a Computer Science student (which requires a lot of numbers and problem solving) and I'm a Business Administration student too -- double degree -- and then I love basketball and playing videogames. I'm not bragging, I'm just saying there's a lot of stuff going on in my head. Well his dad will be the judge when I come home to see them too.

I slept around 3am and then I woke up in the afternoon. My sister's friends were there to practice their dance. I just ate two slices of pizza and then I got going. Oh man, there was so much food yesterday so it was okay. Monday was easy for me. It was straightforward as I recall the fun I had at church and with the folks. At night, I tried to resume on my writing. I find it harder to write these days, and I really don't know why. Perhaps I need to starve myself from writing some more.

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It's Sunday!

Woke up at 9am and we'll be leaving at 10:30am to go to my former church, the Winnipeg Foursquare Gospel Church. I'm still maintaining the site for our former church @ bethelfoursquare.blogspot.ca until now. It has been two years since I met them. At first I thought that we'd make it at 10:30pm, but my ate C stepped out to help preparing food at tita B's house. She came past 10:30pm, and then we drove there. I felt really excited to see everyone again. When we parked our car, I wanted to go ahead and enter the church first, because I was super eager to meet my folks again, but I got super shy all of a sudden.

When I entered the church, one of my sisters of the Lord saw me and she smiled from ear-to-ear and hugged me. I hugged her back too. Then a few heads turned to our direction and I just waved them telling, "I'm back." I can see that they were pleasantly surprised and I walked up to them to hug them too. My ate A pulled my hand and said that she'll find me a seat. My little sister, ate C and her girl were the only people with me that morning and I told them to follow ate A. When I ate A asked if my mom and dad would come, I told them that they would follow after service at the Winnipeg Christian Family Ministry.

In fairness, the stage looks awesome. When I looked at their program, we already missed their first two itinerary. We were already at Praise and Worship, and I immediately glued my eyes on their drummer, my disciple. All I can say is this: at his pace, he'll become better than I am playing the drums. Also, I couldn't help notice but they also followed up How Great Thou Art after singing How Great is Our God. I did that during our first anniversary, though I'm not taking credit. I just remembered it immediately when they did.

They had played a video presentation about their journey how we started with a handful of families and conducted service in a big basement, and look at them now, they have their own church building after 4 years? It's a big church too. It has its own kitchen, Sunday school, a baby room, an office, and the whole place for worship. After that is the Sunday School children dance, and a dance for the tambourine dancers too. Then the Youth played a skit about the reality of being a Christian and the circumstances of Christians.

The message was brought to us by Rev. Steve Falkiner, the President of the Foursquare Gospel of Canada. He pointed reasons why he's passionate about sharing the gospel. I forgot his first point, but he points out that he's passionate because Hell is real, he wants to share the free gift of salvation, and that he's passionate because believes that time is short. I looked behind me and I saw my mom and dad already seated. What time did they come?

We took pictures after service, of course. Then we ate lunch there. Lots of food. There's always a lot of food here. I also sat with the youth, because I wanted to see how they were doing. They were doing real good, I can say. There's a lot of things that happened since we were gone. They've made big progress and I'm very happy. I've seen a lot of unfamiliar faces.

Since I'm a drummer here, I checked the drums out because I also sat there to play about 3 years ago. I can't say that I didn't miss sitting there. We jammed too. We stayed there until 2pm. They didn't want us to go yet, I can tell. My old pastor bid us goodbye and he urged us to come visit again anytime.

We were expected at my tita B's house at 3pm because of tito N's birthday. We already left full and now we're heading to another feast. See? Lots of food. Well, they did have my favourite sea food kare-kare so I still ate. Then I found myself napping in my cousin's room. Funny. They wanted to watch a movie tonight at 8pm, and I was feeling drowsy.

I woke up at 6pm, but they said that the movie plan was called off. Baby duty. We went home after trying to fix the laptop so that they can watch the finale of The Voice Philippines. They like'a Lyca. My relative lola was even gonna riot if she heard you say Darren actually won and that it was just a rumour Lyca won. We went home past 9:30pm, double filled. But of coures there's still padala.

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I woke up at 10am today. I'm excited about two things this weekend. I'll be unboxing 3 things this afternoon and tomorrow will be the 3rd anniversary of Winnipeg Foursquare Gospel Church. I sent a text to my cousin around 10:30am saying "I'm up." I wanted to get a haircut first in the morning, and then off to record in the afternoon. When we reached the barbershop-- sorry-- the salon, I groaned to see the queue inside. I thought that we'd be staying there for at least an hour waiting, cause it's first come first served. Well, this is the only place where I can get my personal haircut. The two of us sat down and waited to see how long we'd actually have to wait -- if that makes sense.

Well, it turns out that after completing the customer before me, he signaled me to come up next. I'm sure I saw four people enter the salon, but okay. I stood up and asked him to wash my hair first. The haircut only took about 15-20 minutes. It wasn't that long. So my cousin and I drove back home to get things started. When we got there, they were asking me if I had lunch, I told them not yet. I was still fasting. Anyway, we have all the three boxes to open lying on the bed. I don't really know what to say yet, so I took the moment to organize my thoughts. That's when I realized that I should've made plans on what the episodes would look like prior to today.

There were 2 Nerd Blocks and 1 Lootcrate to open. We did talk about opening each Nerd Block and film in English and Kapampangan (my native dialect in the Philippines), and then we'll just do impromptu unboxing with the Lootcrate. We filmed the Nerd Block in Kapampangan first and exhausted the time left until 6pm double checking the first episode of Tara Mamusni! (or Let's open it in English). At 6pm, we went to a relative's birthday party. Good, I can eat now. Frankly, I only knew a handful of people there, but they're relatives from my mother side. We left at 7pm after lingering for the sake of courtesy, and not just dine and riding.

At 7pm, we reached back to our studio, the apartment, to film the 2 new episodes of Unboxing in Life. I decided that we should just open the boxes at the living room. We picked the table and placed the camera near it to make it personal and close the proximity. It's like friends just chatting beside the table; I wanted to ask him if he had playing cards, but the props might not be too relevant to play with. When we found our lighting, a tall lamp, I gathered my thoughts again, because I had no time to write a script. I wanted to finish the 2 episodes, so everything was a rush. It's a lesson learned that I still don't have the talent to do impromptu. We'll get there.

Editing time at 10pm. Initially, we intended to keep each short around 5 minutes. The Lootcrate episode was 9 minutes long and the English Nerd Block episode was 9 minutes. Editing was straightforward. But the upload time was very slow. I got home at 11:30pm with my two boxes. I feel more comfortable making videos now. I'm excited for tomorrow, I'm attending the Foursquare church for their 3rd anniversary in the morning.

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I slept around 3am after pondering on what else is there to write. It's also the first time that I was kept up thinking about my future. I couldn't help think about how much I'm gonna save for my trip, how will she react when I meet her in the flesh, and what will happen in the future? I thought about my graduation, my mortgage, my future family, my dreams -- just everything.

I got up at 1:45pm and prayed. Today's my first Friday shift. I'm relieved to discover that my girlfriend's church event was a success. They were victorious. As an experienced event-organizer, I know why she was happy and I could feel her overflowing from her pm on my smartphone. I went to work and I thought I was going to get late. The bus driver had to stop over at KFC to perhaps relief himself? I don't know. He had no chicken when he got back in the bus. I reached the office at 3:57pm, 3 minutes away from the start.

Work was super straightforward and I love it. Really super straightforward and I really loved it that I was super productive on two projects. While looking at the dark street outside the window, I thought to myself that I would rather be working tonight than going to work tomorrow. I imagined a hypothetical situation wherein what if I was staying at home instead-- it's just that the thought of going to work tomorrow, Saturday, seemed really wrong. I'm so thankful right now.

On my desk, I started convincing myself how my fall schedule would look like. This means picking up more hours while going to school. No big deal for me, I'll probably apply for a course this fall. Just one perhaps, because I'm saving for money. Even though that I'm almost there, I have to go home. I have a lot of reasons why I need to go back to the Philippines next year. And it'll speed up my recovery and propel me to those double degrees. I need to see my grandparents, I need to see my love, and I need to see my friends. I need a vacation at home. The beach. The mountains. The food. The sightseeing. The shopping. I miss everything there.

Got off work at 10:40pm. We picked up mom from work and got home around 11:30pm. It seemed strange staying up this Friday night. So strange. So happy too. I don't work tomorrow!

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I thought I was going to sleep early tonight. But my sister sent me a Facebook message (even though she was just upstairs), telling me to finish the rough design for the program brochure to her debut. Great. It's like I'm getting ready to sleep and she tells me, "Oh yeah, you're supposed to finish this tomorrow. Kthxbye." *laughs* No.

It feels like I'm back in school pulling an all-nighter for a school project. They just want to see this Thursday and it's a day-off.

What's not good is that I managed to finish it, but I woke up at 4pm. I managed to finish the layout before going to sleep. Waking up at 4pm on a day off is certainly not good. This means it's just 2 hours left 'til it's the evening. That's how I spent my day-off, eh? Super productive in the early morning and then pfft-- zero on the morning and the afternoon.

Anyway, I showed my layout to my girlfriend and she said it looks great even though it's still in black and white. Then I showed it to my sister and she said she likes it. It's still a rough draft and I don't have the specific details yet for the program schedule.

My collab partner in Mangafox sent me a pm. I told him that I'm super swamped at this time and that my own writing has been sent to the backseat. I tried to write something, but the juice in my head is empty. I guess I'm exhausted for the mean time. The truth is I have so much stuff I want to do that I have virtually no time to write on my stories. I'm gonna let my mind percolate then.

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As mentioned, last night's four-way chat ended fine and still open for the future. I was still not sleepy and I used Skype to video-chat with my special girl. I would use any means necessary to talk to her while we're on LDR. But seeing her just melted my heart again. The stress was gone from work too. I thought that I would be having a good sleep tonight. I slept at 4am.

I woke up at 2pm, because of the all-nighter. I went to work today and tried to finish some things. I also made some calculations or made my estimate about how much money I'll be saving for my trip home. It's not going to be easy, I thought. Although, with the gleeful thought of coming home hanging in my head, I don't really care if it's going to be tough. I'm motivated. I'm really encouraged. I'm determined. Let's do this! Give me more hours, HR!

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I overslept and woke up in the afternoon instead. I discovered that my cousin's husband arrived this morning at 7am. That's a relief. That meant that he waited about 6 hours in Vancouver to catch the next flight to Winnipeg. I remember that it takes two hours to get here by plane from the Easter seaboard.

I went to work today and I heard news of a small incentive from Saturday's productivity. Cool. But I just shrugged it off. It wasn't really an incentive for me. Though it meant something else. Lo and behold, I'm going to work on the hard project again. This project saved me and gave me a good break for my appraisal.

I'm going to send a message to my cousin if he has already received his Nerd Block. We'll be unboxing three boxes this weekend. That means 3 episodes for our channels. Work was also good today. It wasn't that stressful than I thought. I went home past 10pm.

When I got home, I received this pleasant surprise on my Facebook. My girlfriend is inviting me to join a four-way chat with her bestie and her boyfriend. So it's a 4-person chat, 2 couples, and we're all Christians. It was fun and I got to see more of what they thought about my 'our' relationship. I carried over the conversation to Wednesday's early morning with a videochat with my girlfriend.

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Today marks the start of my new schedule, that I don't have any weekend shifts anymore! My Lootcrate and Nerd Block arrived today. Wee. The Lootcrate's July 2014 theme is Villains and it's my first Nerd Block, so I'm excited! However, I can't open them just yet since my cousin is asking me to unbox each in front of the camera.

I chatted with my girlfriend in the morning, and it's no exaggeration that such a simple act would make my day already. I drew a character illustration for my stories. Judging from the pace of my updates, it would take a long time until I could use it. I also finished a logo for my brothers in the WFGC to make up their indie music brand. I think they're planning to revive some of the Filipino Christian music classics. I give them my support and my double thumbs up on their venture.

Speaking of venture, we're trying out a Youtube channel as a container for our shows in the future. My classmates are asking me why I'm not creating a vlog. Well, I told them that I'm loyal to blogging. But I guess it won't harm to try vlogging too. Although I won't quit writing. As part of this Youtube channel experiment, we've published episodes 1 and 2 of our first show called Unboxing in Life. I've had this brainstorm after watching and reviewing our craft; in turn, I have two vines in my mind.

My server was acting up tonight. Some images wouldn't load. I think Blogger and Photobucket were affected. The pages were really slow to load and it wasn't an issue of Internet connection on my end. I checked Photobucket and they had some loading issues. Just loading my dashboard was a problem and the html did not register properly on my browser; the dashboard was all over the place. I also visited other of my fansites and Blogger was loading slow too. It happens.

Come at night, we were supposed to pick up my cousin's husband from the airport at 11pm. But we received a call from my auntie saying that he missed his plane in Vancouver. They said that there was a long queue on the immigration lane and that perhaps he didn't run fast enough to make it to the plane. No matter, they didn't seem worried over the phone. He'll just have to make it to the next flight to Winnipeg. Missing his flight means that I can go to sleep.

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Time to go to church. I woke up at 8:30am and went to church at 10am. We've had guests this Sunday and hopefully new brothers and sisters in the faith. Church was straightforwards today. This Sunday's message was about Jonah and how God is a just God, because God gives equal opportunities, many opportunities; God gives us a gift of salvation, a salvation that is free and that is meant for sharing; God also gives us numerous successes to enjoy.

After the service, I asked for my permission to attend the Foursquare 3rd Anniversary from our Pastor and the head of the Music Ministry since my brothers and sisters in the Winnipeg Foursquare Gospel Church extended their invitation to me. In all honesty, I miss them. If I could describe the WFGC, it's a musically inclined church. I've been in the music ministry since I started playing the drums in 3rd grade, so we have the same wavelength.

It was so hot today. If it's this hot, then we might as well go back to the Philippines, because it felt like it. It was 31c hot. After eating lunch, I went to my cousin to shoot another unboxing video for our channel. I had dinner over there too and ate shrimp. I'm relieved that I didn't have any allergic attack. It comes and goes and I don't know why I get a few instances of itching after eating shrimp. I don't consider myself to be allergic from shrimp. I'm allergic to crabs though, which adds to the mystery why I can eat shrimp.

The shooting was finished around 10:30pm. We picked up my auntie from work. I came home at 11:30pm. It felt like a Saturday night. I remembered that tomorrow's Monday.

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I woke up in the morning with no hint of stress knowing that this is a Saturday shift. This is my last Saturday shift. I wanted to celebrate after work to make it a commemorative day. Since this is my last Saturday, I wanted to document and savour it.

10:54am - In the office. My supervisor friend is working today. I'm fasting today. The last thing I ate last night was a hotdog sandwich. Let's do it.
11am - the shift starts. I still feel lethargic. It just so happens that I'm going to work on probably the most difficult project. Typical boss fight.
11:45am - It's a good start. I guess. I was having thoughts of going home early because I'm not feeling well. Or maybe it was the lethargy talking. Perhaps the laziness talking. I'm missing out on the trip to Grand Beach by the way. I can still make it.
12pm - Yeah, so 6 hours left! First hour went by fast.
1pm - Past hour was good. I'm now determined to finish this. Feeling my empty stomach. Yes, feeling, not filling. I'm starting to space out and imagine my trip to the Philippines.
1:30pm - Sleepy. Into the slow period we go.
2pm - My arms are cold. 4 hours left. Sleepy. Had to go to the washroom to take a break from monotony. Past hour was good.
2:30pm - 30 minutes was also productive. I'm sleepy, but I'm shaking it off.
3pm - Last hour before my break! The past 30 minutes was slow. My arm is starting hurt. I'm getting there. 3 more hours to go! Let's do this. The truth is there's 2:15 hours worth of work left.
3:30pm - 30 minutes left til break. I usually get restless during this period of the Saturday at work crying to go home. I'm getting all sorts of fantasies about my plans when I go home in the Philippines.
3:43pm - Returned from the washroom. I can't help imagine stuff and space out on my desk. I've discovered that Final Fantasy 7 and Final Fantasy 8 are on Playstation Network from a colleague on break.
4:02pm - 2 hours left! I'm taking a 15 minute break. Last hour was slow.
4:17pm - back to work.
4:30pm - Less than 1 hour of work.
4:40pm - I'm taking my 30 minutes break. I'm thinking to myself that this would be the last time I would have this routine on a Saturday. I'm going to open a new chapter on Friday evenings. The truth is, I can still change my schedule and it would exempt Saturdays and Sundays! Crap! I'm getting teary eyed again. My mind is filled with happy things right now.
5pm - Last hour. Still on break.
5:10pm - Back to work. Indeed, there's less than an hour left 'til the end of my Saturday work. The last push!
5:30pm - Oh whaddya' know! I'm almost going home! But I'm super tired.
5:39pm - Washroom break.
5:45pm - It comes down to the last 15 minutes! Such a tease.
5:51pm - It's official! Goodbye to Saturdays!

I could've done something else but I was all by myself, but I was exhausted. I also wanted to hug someone, because I was so happy. Take note that I was still fasting. I ate dinner after 6pm and just lazed on the couch waiting for everyone. They were at the summer clan reunion. And yes, I missed it again. That will all end, because I'm now free from Saturday!

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That one of a kind feeling carried over to my Saturday. And I'll be working on my last Saturday shift. I had this very light feeling going to work unlike the past Saturdays where every part of my body felt heavy. Maybe because I know that this would be my last Saturday shift. No, it's because her words still echoed in my mind.

All I could say is that it's a commemorative day indeed, for both the end of my Saturday and a commemorative day of the revelation of her words. I love you. It's true that I'm going with my all to pursue you. I'll never reserve you for anyone else. If only you could see the sheer joy that I'm feeling. I couldn't sleep properly last night. I couldn't stop smiling on my desk today. I was grinning on space and that I'm relieved no one saw me. They'd think I'm a creep or a weirdo smiling out of nowhere. But I don't care. Such is bliss. Such happiness is unfair. God loves me and then you love me? Do I deserve such happiness?

To be honest, I should be bearing all the anxieties and the worries. She has no reason to be worried about anything, because I haven't proven anything to her yet. Since we're oceans away from each other, I'll have to settle for talking to her however means I could. But I don't want to be that man who's just all talk. And when I come home and meet you, I'll have the time of my life. I feel nervous, because that's the time where I'd have to show that love is a movement.

I ask again, my God, this is only the start and I'm already feeling so much happy? I'm loved by God. I'm loved by you. I'm lost what to say of your grace that saved me. I couldn't help fall into it and I want myself to fall into it. You took me out of this circle, where I no longer start where I end, where I no longer end where I start, where my life is no longer a monotony.

So what is it that I'm really saying? Everything can be summed up with three words. They're words that I won't take for granted. They're words that mean one thing for everybody, but could be defined infinitely. They're words that I won't fall out of. They're words of vacuum that would consume me from here on. They're words I don't normally tell to anyone. They're words that mean something for me, and hopefully they're words that would mean something for you. They're the words that want to be told. And I won't hold back, just like how I'm writing this open letter to you, to that one girl that laid a claim to my heart. To that special girl that I've been searching for. To that girl that I've been praying for. To that girl that I want to spend my present and my future with. I'll tell them over and over to you, no matter how long, no matter how many times you want, and I won't get tired of saying it.

I love you.

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Gising pa ang mga tao, mamaya na lang ako iiyak. The people are still up, I'll cry later instead. One person made me cry today. But I'm sure you're assuming the wrong thing.

One person made me so happy tonight that I wanted to cry tears of joy. I have been carrying an indifferent stance and I've been kidding myself for the past few days. I guess I felt indifferent, but what she said finally broke down my cool and indifferent heart. In those past few days, I felt cool and collected, because I thought to myself that it may be too good to be true. I mean, me? Me? Yours truly? She's agreed to go out with me? Am I dreaming? No! I'm going out with her and it's official? YES!

I love her. That's the truth. I love her. I dropped the bomb on her with my confession and I told her how I feel. I totally just wanted to get to know her, to pursue her, and be with her. At the back of my mind, I may be over my mind confessing to a girl who might be out of my league. I'm in love with someone a world away from me, and that's out of my reach; but I don't want to suppress it anymore.

No, I did not come in as a wrecking ball. I came in with sincerity and honesty with my feelings. My mind and my heart was one for the moment. Remember I sent her flowers, chocolates and a teddy bear back in February? I wrote what I felt there. I sent it without any expectations... no expectations that she would like me back-- 'Like' is the least I would hope for. I mean who was I? Where did I come from? Out of nowhere this guy sends you these things and tells you that he likes you. She could've shrugged it off and ignored it. We're far away from each other and what is it that I can do if she rejected me then and there? I said that I like her, because I was afraid to scare her with a word of such strong gravity: love. But the truth is, I love her.

We've been chatting often ever since. Fast forward to July, after her birthday, I asked her if she wanted to go out with me. I grabbed on to my seat waiting in sheer anticipation. They tell me that it's no rush at all if I asked her out. So I did. I meant to take it to the another stage, ask her to be my girlfriend. Asking someone out has a lot of definition. Kids think that it means hanging out as very close friends. High school folks think it's about dating to be a couple without pure commitment. At this point in life, since we're past that, I'm asking her out to be my girlfriend with an endearing commitment; a relationship planted as a seed, I would nurture and watch it blossom; a relationship that I'm looking for that I want to grow; the stage to set it all that we become more than just a boyfriend and a girlfriend. Thus I asked her out. I'm put on a disadvantage when I'm asking her out with a card. I like her, because it's the very least feeling that needs no confirmation. I love her, and I want her to know personally by showing it and let her feel it herself. Although, I can only do that when I come home. I love her. Yes, I do.

Telling a girl that you like her isn't something to be taken for granted. For guys, telling a girl that he likes a girl takes tremendous courage. The truth also applies when a girl confesses to a guy that she likes him. As for me, I'm willing to try out the waters. I confessed with no expectation that she'll love me back. If she doesn't like me. I'll try again. But if she really doesn't. Then I guess God's telling me to look at things someway else. That's what I thought when I told her that I confessed to her with no expectations. I did not expect for you to tell me that you love me.

She told me one night, "I love you." I kept myself cool. Her words lied dormant in my heart. I went on my usual business for the following days. The words kept still. But then one night, when you said that you love me, and we logged out, I wanted to cry tears of joy. It's no lie.

This is too good to be true. This is too good to be true! What is this weightless feeling? The girl that I love tells me that she loves me? I have been searching. I have been waiting. I have been patient for a long time. I have tried and failed miserably. We hear it in soap operas, in dramas, and we read a lot of 'I Love Yous', but it's true that hearing those three words mean a lot. A lot. But those three words are not ordinary and that sentence shouldn't be taken for granted. It would be a sin if I do. I can't believe it! She loves me? That girl who's a world away from me, the girl who I thought was out of my reach, the girl who I prayed for, the girl that my heart desires, that special girl that laid a claim to my heart, that girl that I was willing to get hurt if she says that she doesn't like me, it turns out that she loves me!

All those sleepless nights, those times where I didn't have any confidence due to my hopeless romanticism, all those experiences that I've had, all those love stories that I've written due to pure imagination and other people's experiences, they proved to be helpful in the end. I can't put my happiness into writing properly how I feel right now. I even told her that if she's uncomfortable calling her my girlfriend, I'd be willing to put our relationship like an open contract and give her the authority to terminate me if she doesn't like what's going on. I'm that of a martyr; a hopeless romantic eh? I had no intention of confessing and 'reserving' her in the future. What kind of a guy would do that? The assurance is that I won't hurt her, nor anything, and that I am the person pursuing her. If she doesn't like it, she can break up with me; but I won't leave her that easily. I won't give up. Cause I love her. The girl I love loves me. This drama is worth it. Crying about it with tears of joy is worth it.

The truth is... I can't concentrate. I'm falling. I can't describe this happiness properly. Words won't really suffice to how happy and thankful and relieved I feel right now. My God, this is no ordinary love.

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We've finally started crafting our Youtube channel, SamFoxCraft or SFCraft in short. Instead of kimikimkimster, I'll be Sam1 as we'll be crafting non-anime video projects ranging from unboxing to vines. More details to come in the future.

I woke up in the afternoon and my cousin texted me that he brought his SUV to the dealer for an oil change. He'll pick me up at 3:45pm. Since he wants me to unbox his stuff, I'm going over to their place. Filming started at 4pm. Since we're starting from scratch, I told him that we need to search for our identity first. It was a grueling process, but it's progress.

We ate dinner and then went back to film the short bits. We were pleased with what we have. And more. We've had more brainstorms on our way to pickup auntie. And you know me, when I find an interesting idea and if I like it, I'll be pursuing that idea until its fruition. We'll see what happens in the future.

We picked up auntie from work at 11pm. I got home around 11:30pm. I still wanted to stay up as I need to write, but my mind's exhausted.

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Our videochat carried over until 3am. I had fun. It was simple, random, and truly relieving. That long chat left smile on my face while I lied my head on my pillow. The typhoon Glenda is now leaving the Philippines, but my hometown is haunted by rotating blackouts for the moment.

Work was super productive today. I think I pushed myself and I'm tired. After my break, I inhaled and exhaled for the last hour push. After this, I'll be checking in with my cousin for tomorrow's unboxing business. We're planning to make a Youtube channel about... random stuff too. The truth is, some of my friends have been asking me why I'm not videoblogging instead. I told them that I've been a blogger for a long time and my loyalty lies with writing. It's a pretty absurd reason, but I'm starting to think that writing might have been a phase in my life when I was growing up. Maybe I'll be entering into a new phase now that I'm a young adult.

Well anyway, it doesn't mean that I'll be quitting from writing. Not at all. I'm surprised that I haven't quit at all, unlike my brother. He's pursuing something else right now. Photography and haiku. But enough about endorsing him.

When I got home, I checked my email and I noticed that my nerdblock has already been shipped. I'm excited. This is my first nerdblock, and it looks promising. In case you didn't know, sign up for Nerdblock subscription and they send you this awesome comic-con in a box every month, with lots of goodies, toys and a shirt. You don't really know what's inside although you can pick the theme of your block when you order. I'm into figurines, comics, arts and comics too, so I'm trying it out.

I sent a message to my cousin for tomorrow. I don't know what will happen. Originally, I'm willing to help and write script for his video, but he's leaning more to me doing the showcasing and the talking. I don't look good on videos. I don't look good at all.

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They're still doing roadworks in our street. Before going to work, I checked my FB and some of my friends were concerned about the strong winds of typhoon Glenda. I dropped a comment on them telling them to stay safe. I know that we're worlds apart, but it was sunny where I am compared to where they are and I found the reality check. I'm glad that I don't have to deal with all that like in the past.

I thought that I was gonna get late going to work with all the roadwork. But I wasn't. I went to work today with my heart pounding, because today's the moment of truth. The schedule change would be official and I won't be working weekends anymore.

Downtown. It was hot. We are in the summer period indeed. I arrived in the office around 4:40pm. After setting down my things, I headed straight to the HR office with my pen in hand. I grabbed a form and changed my schedule. Fortunately, the scheduling supervisor asked me how I was doing when I handed in my form. I told her that I was doing fine. When she looked at it and filed it in, I thanked them from the bottom of my heart.

I'm free from weekends!

HR told me last week that they're removing my Saturdays and my Sundays so I can just work weekdays! This is such a relief! I'm not exaggerating it, but for five years I've been working Saturdays and imagine how many fun times I've missed!


I walked back to the office and also thanked my office supervisor. She really helped me out.

Work was super straightforward today. It was one of those rare days that I just went to work, I encountered no issues, and then I came home. My friend also told me about this book from Gregg Braden called The God Code. I'm interested to see it. I could've asked for more information on it, but I was already headed home when he shared me about it. I arrived home around 10:21pm.

My younger cousin slept over tonight. Since I know that there's a strong typhoon in the Philippines right now, I wanted to check up on the girl that laid a claim to my heart. After having dinner, I had a videochat with my girlfriend -- haha! -- and my sister and my cousin joined in. Curiosity of the kids perhaps. Both of them were loud. I'm relieved that the toddler staying with us didn't wake up. She's hard to put to sleep too. The chat was fun. It carried over to the early morning.

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Today is her birthday. I can't really detail my happiness today. I think it's official between both of us. We've finally become a couple. We videochat in the early morning. We're going out now. Let's just leave it at that. I'm so happy that the Pharell William's song is playing in my head!

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Happy Birthday!

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So there you go. That explains the flowers as well.

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Let's get the working face on! It's Saturday and I love it! I love working Saturdays that I want to sign up for overtime too! I'm not going home tonight! I'll just be here earning money in the office since it's already Saturday evening and it's raining hard outside! I'd rather be in my office, warm and cozy and doing work! No, I'm not hungry at all even though I'm fasting every Saturday! It's all good! Even though there's an anime convention on the next building, I don't care! I love working on a SATURDAY! An anime convention, huh? No problem! I don't like anime at all! Not at all! Far from it! Anyway, all good and fun things have to come to an end and so I went home at 6pm.

My head hurts. I talked to a high school friend today too. I wanted to stay and chat, but I was ready to eat and my head really hurts. I was supposed to do other things today too, but I couldn't take it anymore and I turned in early. No, I'm not at all sarcastic on the paragraph above. Just kidding. I hate working Saturdays and I'm super sad I missed the anime convention -- AGAIN! See what I'm missing out when I work Saturdays?! I missed the Red River EX, Comicon, Videogame convention and now the anime convention! Not to mention outings, eating, and chilling!

The funny thing is... I still need to work Saturday next week.

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My brother sent me a text message about ERD. It's Entity-Relationship Diagram in the language of a Database. Speaking of questions, I also had some questions on my credit card. Anyway, I'm not worried about anything right now. It's still too early and there's no reason to be. I was only able to do a few things today. My Paypal is verified. Finally, my brother dropped by around 7pm. It's a reversal role this time as I taught him how to do his homework. I'm surprised I still remember some of the things I've learned. I gave him a freebie on his number 1 homework. Before going to sleep, I had designed a website for my ongoing anime project. It's not important enough to make a major announcement though. Tomorrow's a Saturday and I just need to survive my remaining Saturday shifts until I'm completely weekend free. There's always that boss level to defeat in life before you can level up.

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Thursday is a happy day! I woke up when I read that I had a message from my favourite girl on FB. I read about their plans on the tea shop entrepreneurial and she was asking what could be the best colour for the shop like the interior and the overall theme of it. I gave her my suggestion and opinion about it. She also asked me about what could be some interesting names and slogan of the shop. She was already going to sleep, and so I told her that I'd just send her the names I would come up through chat. That's that.

I signed up for Nerdblock today. I have yet to see how Nerdblock fares up with Lootcrate. I have two Lootcrate subscriptions and they did not disappoint. This month's theme from Lootcrate is Villains.

My sister's friends dropped by this afternoon to help on her debut decorations. I think they're working on the flower pieces. And it was supposed to be my day-off today, but I found myself working. I had to design another piece for her, the table number. I know it's simple, but since it has to be fancy, I gave a good work. Not only that, I found out that her friends haven't eaten yet. So I had to drive up to a pizza shop and buy food for them. My cousin was there too. They got home and one of them ate about two slices of Hawaiian and she was off? I wasn't really looking for a thank you or anything like that, but she just left afterwards. She could've taken a rest for a while. Maybe they were done and she was really hungry for something else? I don't know.

Also, my bank called today and I missed it. When the bank calls, I just realized now that it sorta' gives you a sense of discomfort. I used my credit card for that Nerdblock thing. My sister said that they'd call back after half an hour. They didn't call me back. I'm thinking it's just a telemarketing call selling me insurance or something like that.

Come in the evening, I took it easy by playing Mario Kart 7 on the 3DSXL. Online. Yup. I play Mario Kart too.

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Hilarious turn of events in the afternoon yo'.

So I woke up and I found my sister's suitor in the living room together while they were crafting the invitations for her debut. It was a surprise indeed. I think that it's cute, although this means that I'm about to leave them together at home since I was going to work. I was left with two choices: should I ignore them or talk to them? Something deep inside me was telling me that I can't really leave them without saying anything. I don't want to think of anything negative, because they were just helping each other with the invitations. But as the adult currently present, and as her older brother, I did what I had to do. After brushing my teeth, I was all set to go. I called them one by one and told them my piece. I don't need to explain it here what I said, but I gave them both some tips and explained some things to them. From what I can say, both of them are innocent. I just want to be careful and I just want both of them to be careful too. What's important is that both of them understand what I've told.

Moving on, I went to work today and the huge portion of the road was under repair. I was worried a bit that my bus would be late or reroute to somewhere else. I made sure that I'd get to my ride no matter what and I hurried to the farther stop to catch the bus. Indeed I was worried for nothing and the right bus didn't reroute to anywhere else. I arrived on time in the office.

Right. Next order of business is my most important yet. I had to talk to my supervisor and ask for help to see if they can convince the HR to change my schedule. Time and time again, folks, I've been posting here that I hate working Saturdays and Sundays. I always miss out on the weekend and I've been missing out for 5 years already. Not only that, my group in college meets Saturdays and I can't always give the same excuse that I work Saturday. No more. I asked for help and the office supervisor said that she would help me convince HR. My heart has been racing ever since I woke up this morning. I'm waiting for her call tonight.

Work was straightforward and productive. I got home at 10:26pm. Just after I set my bag down, I received a cellphone call. It was my supervisor and she asked me whether I can work on a Sunday. I told her Sunday is strictly for church. And she said took my note. Now, the waiting game commences as she said that she'd call me tomorrow about it. The pieces are coming together. I can feel it.

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Man, we're back to work!

Oh, my new credit card arrived today. I'm waiting on two cards too. Here comes the debtsssss! Wee! It was so noisy at home because my sister's friends came over to practice for the cotillion. I can't comment how the dance is coming along. But I can safely say that it's still a mess!

They woke up the whole house so that includes me. You know, I felt stress just waking up and knowing that I'm going back to work and my sleep was cut considerably short. I looked at the mirror and I welcomed myself back to reality.

The truth is today's shift was considerably light, mind you. It is. It was straightforward and I was off going home at 9:30pm. When I got home, I opened up the Internet to chat with some folks. I also had a phone conversation with my favourite girl and she told me her escapade in Singapore. Lots of story. But by the time it was my turn to tell stories, she was already ready to eat lunch. I just laughed at myself and I told her to eat. It was late in my time so I went back to my business and eventually dove to my bed to sleep.

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Ugh. Mondays. And it's my last day of break too!

Today was pretty productive. I just did some lazying around to catch up on fun. I didn't want to bother being productive yet. I'm like a cat. I'm like Garfield.

I played some games, I wrote stuff, I read books, ate and slept. I didn't want to go out since I've just done that last week and yesterday. I'm a home body too. Yep, I'm like a cat. I'm like Garfield indeed.

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It's Sunday service. It was fairly straightforward and empowering. Today's message is about the days of Elijah and how we could live in the days of Elijah. After the service, there was a meeting for the church leaders. My sister and I had to go home early, because we're supposed to work on the invitations for her debut.

My brother and my sister-in-law dropped in at 2pm to help. I'm finally finished printing the invitations. I'll just print extra if there's a need, but I'm done. I'll be working on the Powerpoint presentations next, but I need time to put my brain in percolate. I also chat with my folks back at home. We spent about two hours on Skype and finally they were able to video-chat reach my brother and my sister-in-law. It isn't often they get to chat, but everyone in the family was there, my grandparents were happy.

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Since it was somewhat an exhausting trip I just took a deep sleep today. I slept throughout the day. When I woke up, I looked at myself on the mirror and I noticed that my skin sorta' looked improved. I'm going to talk like a chick for a moment so bear with me: my face had this fair complexion, my pores aren't visible, and no eyebags. I'm fabulous! I love to sleep. I love to sleep because I don't want to give up on my dreams.

Anyway, people should try it, just forget the responsibilities of this life for the day and sleep. It's a Sleep Saturday. What else happened? I just slept.

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We're wrapping up our trip today and I couldn't help feel sad. It has been fun. The camera of my phone is crap, so I'll just ask my cousin for the pictures. We ate outside today. But we were supposed to watch Transformers 4 today. 2 of 4 people dropped out because they were busy with other stuff. We called it off and ate outside instead. Eating outside on a Friday night, that's how my Friday nights are supposed to be. And not sleeping early because I have to go to the office on a Saturday morning. God, I love vacation time.

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Still on break. Do not disturb.

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I woke up early this morning and the first thing I did is pray. I just prayed and thanked God, because this is the break that I needed. I reaffirmed my prayers for this year and so far everything is going great. I'm hopeful to have a fruitful 2014 indeed. The look of it is promising. We're already going past the half of 2014, people!

Weather has improved significantly. It's so unreal how the weekend up 'til Canada day brought nothing but rain. I wasn't amused. And then after the holiday, the sun showed itself. Quit playing games with my heart! Anyway, a break is a break and I have no worries. The trip goes on.

I'm more than half of my 365 project too!

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Happy Canada day to everyone!

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